What's going on with me??

polonia airport!

2011-05-08T12:05:00.001+08:00

testing this new blog app thing.hmm.wonder does it work or not?

polonia airport!

2011-05-08T12:00:00.001+08:00

going back!!!!away from craziness!hopefully when i go back..im sane again!:D

I just want to go home!

2011-05-01T20:49:00.003+08:00

I drafted my letter already. The only thing missing is the letter head. I don't have it. Don't know who has it. I think I need this. Just want to go home and start new life in Malaysia. I don't wish to do any harm to anyone or mean to hurt anyone here. But, i did. Unintentionally. What to do right? Learn from mistakes. Made me realise, I am not nobody. I will try to move on from this. and all I want is a new beginning. can I have that? At least I can make the people who really think I am important to them happy. With this, I bid this place farewell. I don't care about the hostel money. That's fine. KEEP IT. Wish the money goes to some charity rather than that thing. Bluek. But what to do.This is the end?I guess so. Had fun here. When it was good. it was great. Those are the past. HAve to face the facts. Move on. Forget. and yes, I hope God forgives me for talking agaisnt the bible. I didn't mean that. Was angry. I don't know why angry people say stupid things. I think, when we're angry we should just shut our mouths. WIth that we don't regret saying anything!Anyway, i still believe those words. Because something as beautiful as "that" indeed can be as destructive. I am just unlucky to land on the destructive side of that. I do agree it is kind and ever forgiving. Yes, makes people go blind. Makes you have a heart i guess. But having a heart gives someone the power to destroy you. To make myself content for now is knowing that, I did do my best. My friend mentioned something about being hurt. And because of hurt, you get sad. Indeed. I feel rather....er..what's the word don't know the word..annnoyed?i think dissapointed.....I had been screamed at. Shut the door on my face. Yes, did hit me. Told to my face I was nothing. Had to cry and beg for forgiveness and got ignored. etc.and I was still your friend. I am very sad. I feel, my friend so important to me and I tried so very hard to be a good friend but still said I didn't care. (twice i think). then Maybe it's my fault. I am simply not a good friend. I deleted my fb. What's the point right.. :( I do feel I am all alone now. I still have my family. Though they are miles away. But, I know they always be there for me no matter what. And the quotation you gave?i don't understand why or the relevance in that. I hope I can still be a good friend. But that quotation teaches me, if you really care about that friend of yours. You just let that friend go. indeed. I don't wish to hurt anyone.I am sorry.and goodbye.

2011-04-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

It’s been ages since I have written anything. As usual, occasionally I feel the urge to write something, yet, words don’t seem to come out. My brain is a mess. A clutter. Perhaps it’s because my life is a clutter. I have no idea what I am doing. I know it is too late to turn back things. I wished I hadn’t done some things. And some decisions. But I can’t do anything. I should think what I can do. I want things to change. I don’t want this. I wish I know what the right decision is. I feel I am wasting myself . I think I deserve more no? I don’t really know how I feel now. Seriously. But I feel some sort of PAIN. I don’t know why. I wish to scream. But what am I screaming for? I think I am afraid what’s the real problem until my brain made it unknown. I am in denial.

I feel really stuck. I wish everything would be simpler. But how to make it simpler? It’s almost end of april. I haven’t made my decision yet. My kti isn’t done. And…middle of 2011…I still feel lost. I feel so sorry for myself how I can downgrade myself like this. Have I no value?Maybe… -- Don’t ask. I don’t know what to say. I surrender. I know nothing already. I don’t know what’s wrong. Or right. What more what to do. I don’t understand why I feel still so disappointed. Why? Why I still feel the pain and trauma from that? Why am I so scared? I wish to be braver. And perhaps luckier. I can’t ask for redemption. I know, life isn’t fair. Just wish it would. One day maybe I would understand the reason of all these?No idea. I hope so. I cannot watch love stories without feeling something inside me is breaking or listen to a love song. funny. I feel emotional inside.

I should concentrate on better things. Study. And KTI. my only thought should be that. *nah* for the one who messed me up like this. I hope this mental scar isn't permanent. I dont know what to believe anymore. I still feel very afraid to depend on anyone or believe anyone. Because I cannot face that again. Be strong right? One day , I will find my way.......till then. DONT WORRY BE HAPPY

2011-02-20T16:58:00.006+08:00

I feel I have so many pieces of puzzle..but all of them come from different puzzles..Understand that feeling? I don't want be Miss Emo.is lame. But I feel I want to just disappear from the map. Is that so impossible? I told a friend before. I wish not to depend on anyone. I want do things on my own. I finally understood why I said that. It's because when you used to depending on someone already, then one day those people you depend on is not there for you. You will feel so lost. How? I am a person who grew in time with a lot of newly found fears. Psychological problem? Traumatised. and still is. I am almost 23. And will I still think like a teenager, with all these problems, who am I?what am I?whata do I want?what do I want to do in the future? What is right for me? Simple answers, but I can't answer them. I did contemplate on moving out from this place. Found a place already actually. BUt, I don't want to create drama. I just want to slip out quietly. Perhaps then I can find myself again? I don't know who I am anymore........Feel like new person...Conflict..

I want to be a good person, but some how...until now I don't think I am that good. I have done so many things that I am not proud of. I feel I am better than this..Time to change. This is my promise to myself.....for now..I want to fade away..............into a galaxy far far away....................no more expectations...Hopefully in years to come, I will find myself again.... :)

2011-02-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

If you really love that person, just let them go..don't be selfish....bid them goodbye...because this is best for them..and for the last time, pray that they will always be alright and happy...and never ever speak of it again...

Past is past....

2011-02-16T00:21:00.003+08:00

Tuesday..Boring day..want to say something..just say to the wall also.............boring..boring.....Tomorrow is busy day...going to finish off my judul...lab...class...and then study....tonight..need study a lot..no time d.. :S

Let's do maths :)

2011-02-13T02:40:00.003+08:00

Friend better than gf/bf.

No friend is sometimes better than bad friend.

Friend always better than enemy.

Peace always better than fight unless defend yourself.

Silence better than talk crap.

Careful make promises.

Careful what you wish for.

Always be clear of what we want.

Clear of all our principles.

Do right.

Do good.

Sayang ur family.

Take care of ourselves.

Know our priority.

Take care of dignity.

Patience is.....#1!

For what I have become now.. I am very happy with myself. But, i know I am not perfect. Now, I really don't know what to do. What to want. Where to go to. Who to talk to. I have no one anymore.

To that person? I am very sorry.......It is best to be like this now...I myself...think...it is not enough...Good also..one day you will find a person who will love you equally..for what I have now is not love...I also one day hope to love someone again..till that time comes..love only few things : Family Books + friends...and God! For those who didnt respect me..pls...why you doing this to me? just let me be...I went through a lot last year...half of me really feel like dead already...dont killl me even more..

From this time onwards detox time. I wan just stay i my room.....and do my things...dont want disturb anyone...I wan study....im not important...doesnt matter anyway...time will cure everything...if he can do it..why cannot I....

2011-02-03T04:50:00.002+08:00

A friend said. Just be yourself. Yes, be myself. But what if myself is not good enough? Ever since I destroyed myself, I always think I am not good enough. I have no confident. Always do wrong. I know, no one is perfect. But am I that imperfect? I wonder when I can find the confidence again. Hope one day. I learn to accept myself and be happy with myself and learn to forgive myself of all the mistakes I have done.

Past few months I have learnt a lot. I feel I have changed. Maybe a bit grown up already. The process of growing up is not a smooth journey. I feel a lot of pain while going through this transition. Not trying to show emotion here. If can I wish not to be like this. The burden I had carried I can still feel the pressure on myself. But slowly going away. I learn to forgive myself. Maybe, that’s not entirely my fault. Some how I did something right. I do feel regret I wasted my time wasting myself. I really destroyed myself. Very stupid. For what right? To learn a lesson. Haha. I think the best education is outside the classroom. Education should also shape our attitude. Be a better person. I do feel shame of my old self. Asking myself, why are you so dumb. Haha….but it’s alright…again..LESSON LEARNT. I thank everyone who has taught me so much to make me the person who I am now. Ok…not all changes are good. Some people also feel my change is no good.

Anyways, life is a big mystery to me now. What will happen?I also don’t know. Will I survive this craziness?haha….God help me.:P I think I should just take life lightly. I learnt that recently. Not think too much. Eventually it will be okay. For those who never appreciate me. Of course there’s a reason why people are like that. What to do. I did wrong I guess. All I can say is. I apologise for not being a good person. But, I think I am cool enough..haha..I know, I may not be pretty, not smart, not hardworking…but always my intentions are never corrupted.

I know, I lack respect in some people. For this I only can say, NAH. I am fed up already. Whatever la. Pls, if cAN DON’T TALK to me again.

Wish can scream some profanity at someone. One day? Hate that person. Wish that person dead. hate that person. HATE THAT PERSON. How can one human be so hateful to me. I feel sin hating someone that much. Hate. I don't wish to talk to that person anymore.hate u hate u hate u. Can I give u a call? and JUST SCOLD?not drunk enough .LOL.but i know I HATE U. pls grow up. Wish can face time with you JUST TO SHOW U MIDDLE FINGER. BECAUSE I * HATE U.

happy chinese new year. lol

2011-02-01T00:43:00.001+08:00

I don't want anything else d..

Just study..

Enough of eveyrthing else..

2011-01-29T21:53:00.002+08:00

My past still haunts me sometimes. I am a mess because of my past. I feel very sad because..it seems yes, although i seem to get what I want but..I never seem to fail to destroy it...even the things and ones I actually love more than myself.. Stupid right? Humans are very stupid. I am stupid human. People like me..should be let to be born. LOL. Horrible. The only thing that goes between me and happiness is myself. I feel a lot of pain no because of myself.I have a good friend. But gone. Why?because of myself.I never learn. because why?stupid lo. Simple answer.

Conclusion? Stupid. Manusia sgt bodoh.

2011-01-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

Decide. DO. Don't think anymore. Case closed.

No more playing. Time to be serious.

Study hard.

Appreciate.

No more pain.

If you dont appreciate.

THen please leave. Don't ask for me.

2011-01-25T15:18:00.002+08:00

I wish you were here- Vanilla Twillight~ :)

2011-01-14T20:14:00.002+08:00

Dear blog.It seems I have been struck by a problem. I can't seem to decide. I don't know what I want. What is good for me. Of how I feel. But some how the answer seems so simple to some. But Im just afraid what if it's the wrong answer. If I were to go decide the right thing. Then it seems I would be going back to my old self old life. I don't want to go back there...something I don't wish to relive again. Don't know what to do...

2010-11-02T01:24:00.000+08:00

Help me...

2010-10-23T17:34:00.000+08:00

done!deleted my posts...^^

cleaned up my blog...too much emotion in those entries :P

truth or dare

2010-09-18T16:09:00.004+08:00

Truth...

how do i really feel beneath this exterior?

Feel used...then just thrown away like that...

Feel....like nobody is backing me up...

Feel...doubt about myself being a doctor lo..

hmm...

Just want be alone...

I am a Mess...

Can i be mend?

Next is dare..?

Any offers of a dare anyone?

2010-09-12T02:50:00.003+08:00

Laptop infront of me..

Notes on my lap..

why am i not studying?

what am I thinking???I am thinking of places I want to go one day :

1. Some where, where it is snowing!And live in a Igloo!

2. Egypt.I want to see pyramid!

3. Pangkor, Redang...heard its very nice eh..

4.Vatican city! and go to their library!lol..imfluenced by angels and demons already..:P

5. Imax cinema..and watch 3D..lol..never done that before lo..

6. Somewhere got 7 wonders of the world!

Raya!!

2010-09-10T10:22:00.011+08:00

Happy raya!Happy Eid Murbarak!Hope everyone had a lot of fun!and a lot of food!!!^^
Anyway,I went raya visiting yesterday!Haven't been for few years now...
Raya day one! in klParents woke me up super early to go visiting!

My hair!!!Decided to use this hair clip..but at the end i changed it to black ribbon!:P
This one!black ribbon...lol...hmm..may hair very long already..feel like CUTTING MY HAIR!!!!but everytime cut..later sure regret...when long want short..when short..want long..this is human nature..can't be happy with what we have...

This is what I wore..very light pink kurung..first time i wore baju kurung..here..in the pic..i was experimenting how I looked if i had my hair tied...lol..

at the end..i decided to just leave it down..cant find hair band to tie..:P

Ate Mcd breakfast....too hungry d....around 10..finally parents came back from astana...then went visiting...!

to be continued~

2010-09-08T20:42:00.006+08:00

Today is Aricka's 22nd birthday!!~ Happy Birthday Aricka!!=) Pls come Malaysia one day la!~

What i'm wearing today : Flowery dress.
Every piece of clothing has a story behind it..and will continue making memories that we go through everyday..may it be a reminder that each day,holds a potential that anything can happen and nothing is impossible..^_^,Through the threads and stiches...let's travel through time !

-The dress and the past-
The story behind this one is, this dress was bought in Medan during my 4th sem.I bought it with Suba at Sun Plaza the plaza where she bought her super sing kan flowery dress with a lot of frills. Shall always remember that day!Maybe one of my last time shopping with Suba. Then, if i'm not wrong I went back Malaysia the next day..She said this dress makes me girly..haha..okay..something that I may lack sometimes...;)

-Going back into the present-
Today, i wore it to Midvalley. The weather was terrible. Raining for hours already. Lightning and thunder. Pots of plants had fallen. The giant flag on one of the buildings near by my condo had fallen also. Horrible weather! Then, traffic jam....feel asleep in the car...@ midvalley, had dinner at crystal jade, bought my ink printer to print my notes, bought contact lenses. This time I chose colourless one..back to basics! After that...went to buy lemang and rendang...then went home...was still raining..still traffic jam...i guess this is KL.

Either way, i'm always happy to be home. Sunny or grey skies, traffic jam or no traffic jam...I love this city ^_^

STUDY!!!!Exam super soon...time to start!Hope everyone also study hard...don't play too much !!It's not holiday..it's study leave!I really hope I do well this time..as, last semester I did horribly....Wish me all the best!:)

2010-09-07T21:33:00.007+08:00

Blog what i'm wearing!that's what my friend annie suggested.sounds interesting!shall give it a try!;)

After diagnosis is drugs!Pharmacology is very important!and yet...it's not given enough emphasis!

Location: Home
What i'm wearing : Hard Rock Cafe Kuala Lumpur t-shirt.No la, i've never been there la. I think it belongs to my sister.
Hair : After shower siaw chabo hair! or...rocker style!nerdy rocker!;)

Here my hair is less siaw..drying up already..haha...look at the right side corner...mcd!^_^

Me and the burger!Trying to conquer Fillet-o-fish~

AMMM...eating cucur cempedak~

Want some?

Travel web log

2010-09-06T22:53:00.022+08:00

Laptop with web cam + travelling to some destination+boredom= travel web log!something that I should start doing from now onwards^_^to remember all my journeys to various places!I think it would be very interesting!Pictures do describe things better than words do...hope you enjoy it!~ALL these pictures were taken by my laptop*

This is me at the lounge at Polonia airport, Medan leaving for Malaysia. My flight was at 3.45pm. Went from my hostel at 2.15pm. Was a hectic morning.Many unexpected things happened. Woke up super late that day. Didn't have much time to pack. But I managed to have brunch thanks to Hui Wen (thanks!the fried crispy pork was yummy!). Left both of my Malaysia number in Medan. Haih..no number now. Nvm.don't need it also la..

Next picture~

Alright, this one i'm at the gate already. Medan airport is very funny. Must keep all your senses open!Be alert!like today...i was sitting down at the gate, then suddenly saw people start getting up to board the plane. Never said which flight or what destination also. --> =.=" not the first time this happens also.Many times. They never announce properly!In order to know which flight is boarding..see what ticket the passengers are carrying..is it your airline?if yes..then faster get up..!!!run!Which reminds me, when i was at the gate, i saw my school mate was sleeping...a junior. I didn't bother. Then forgot about him..i boarded the plane...flew to Malaysia already..then i remembered...hmm..did he make the flight or not...then i felt guilty...woops...should have remembered to wake him up..>< hope he didn't miss his flight!!

Me and my ticket!!ok..boarded the plane already!yay..in less than an hour I would be in Malaysia already!!^^*happy* I love my home!!!Miss my family!!!I want Malaysian food!!!

Don't have MAlaysian food yet...meanwhile...eat airplane food first..^^

The menu today was Prawn Sandwich!ok ok la..hungry anything also ok la..

Hey!first time they gave kurma on airplane..i forgot to bring back..the packet so cute^.^

Cheese and strawberry sandwich!!!haha..so weird!but not bad eh..quite nice combination^^

Ferrero Rocher~^^

I love pickle!!!!Although when eating it cause suffering!but i still like it :P

In the car!~When I arrived in KL, first thing my mom said was,
Mom “wah so thin already,small..you look like form 1 kid”..=.=oh gosh.” You on diet?Your sister said sure you go on diet one”..
Me: “ No, just no appetite la..not purposely want to lose weight”..
Dad: “ No appetite?!Something not right” ( uh oh..he suspect something already><)
Me: “No la No la…just very tired…some more puasa month very hard to find food. Also I get full very fast”..(I didn’t want them to get worried… ><)
From airport went to Midvalley to have dinner. Had Japanese food. Then went to Indian exhibition. Bought sari. Red one. Thennn…..went back home lo…yay..happy to be home!^^
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@Home in kl….Skype..became hungry..at Kinder bueno…Skype..ghost trappers..ghost trappers..and ghost trappers!Owh my..I am addicted to this game!!I don’t understand why so interesting also.All you do is,
*Click on “let’s hunt”* * catch ghost* * happy!*they’re very cute la!! After that..*wait for few seconds* then restart the whole cycle again..sometimes fail to catch..then become sad..then wait some more…while waiting..feel very excited..weird la..then when out of alcohol ( need alcohol to catch ghost!)…go buy some more..also earn money when caught a ghost…earn money then buy more things to catch cute cute ghost…haha..very funny la!When ever I see one of them playing I’ll say “omg..you ppl ar..seriously got nothing better to do is it???What’s so nice..just click on that thing..and wait..and click again..very → =.=! “
and now?WHOLE DAY I go play Ghost Trappers.ahahaha…it’s fun!!!
And mousehunt??that one..till now I can’t accept.At least ghost trappers, the ghost cute.MOuseshunt..cute also no..eeee.
Next day~
It’s holiday time!^^ Today woke up early to have breakfast. Bah kut teh! @ jln imbi there. Then went to dentist to send my mom. The dentist thought I was in secondary school.”oh ya….now school holiday,so can follow mummy go see dentist la”=.= blargh…pertumbuhan terbantut. Anyway, brought my laptop along to the dentist. Can add collection into my travel web log!
Here’s picture of me…how I look?Nerd!^^with specs..that’s why like secondary school kid?I think so la. The dentist I’m at is somewhere in cheras. He’s specializes in dental implants. Even got “kuliah” at the dentist just now.He showed us slides on dental implants and how’s there procedures, the results and outcomes.haha…holiday also got kuliah><

@ home!chill..time..

bye~

2010-05-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

It's the end of May already.Holidays are coming. But i still think they're too far away. Many things have to go through first....I really feel I will go crazy>_< Today is one of the worst days.I really feel terrible. I don't want to be like this.But I don't know what to do. I really suffer every single day..................................................
I really should throw that thing away.......seriously....Everytime I see it I will cry...But how can I throw it?that is the only thing left that reminds me of you...I wished I hadn't pasted the 9 cards in the books...now I can't see them anymore....=.= Why I did that???=.=no brain.better also..later i cry some more..=.=

Exams....notes pilling up....I think almost 30 cm...-,-when I see it i feel like vomitting...=.=

Hong Kong Trip II

2010-01-06T21:47:00.032+08:00

Blargh..this post is a bit messy.....can't rearrange the pictures!!!
Alright....next is HK, Disneyland.....
Disneyland....is a dreamland....no matter how down you are...it can lift you up in a second..you would feel like you're a child again!:P

Boo!At the entrance of fantasy land...:D
That's the castle!

The highlight of the day.fireworks coming out from the castle...Few seconds after this....my camera batt went empty!

Street of disneyland....:) Wished I lived in disneyland!!!

This is the parade!..there's mickey!

Gingerbread man..feel like hugging him! XD

Dwarfs..!Made me feel like a dwarf...because they're about my height..:P

Corn....TEN RINGGIT....:P

Not easy to take this picture..the tree is super super tall.....!

Hong Kong skyline.....hmm..foggy....pollution!!!Makes msia look super clean...:P

A snap from arena of stars.....May you rest in peace..

My kaki

THere was an anime conference held nearby....haha...so.....

More people who went to the meeting..check out those shoes!

YEs...fishing is very dangerous wo....

streets of HK

I enjoy walking at the streets...weather is just nice....HK is one of the safest country in the world!:)

Not the usual Sundae eh......I didnt get to try it though...=\

McD breakfast!!!Macaroni....!So different..

Check this out!!!Furry thingies!!

Everything is just so $$$ in Hk.A loaf of bread for RM8!

Does this look familiar?!..YEA!!GUARDIAN!

Almond bubble tea!!!

Mc D is different!Check this out!

Sizzling pork rice....price?Rm15!

HK coin....so "flowery"

Money!Equivalent to RM500 ...

I am tired of uploading pictures...@@ .....

anyways...enjoyed my trip..:)...was an interesting experience..learning and seeing new things...appreciate every moment of it!.....bye bye HK..will I see you again?

Hong Kong Trip

2010-01-03T13:48:00.010+08:00

Few weeks ago....I had a trip to Hong Kong!!Erm...on christmas eve my family and I flew to HK. It was a 3 hour flight from KL. I brought my "urban legend" jacket. I called it that because it looks like the jacket the murderer wears in that movie!Cool or not? On the plane, I watch this movie which I like!It's a classic..involves chocolate...lots and lots of chocolate..it's called Chocolat...feel asleep half way through the movie though...I was tired okay..very tired..!!!Anyways.....3 hours later...I landed in HK!Excited wo....haha....Thoughts that ran through my head?hmm..wonder how's the weather?Cold?From the window...looks cloudy..must be fog..so much be cold!Thank goodness I brought my "urban legend" jacket!First impression of any country will be based on its airport.It's like the preview of the country...Here is a glimpse of HK.....

Alright...the airport was nice....Had that warm feeling.Lots of airports have that "cold" feeling..like the airport back home..KLIA..maybe because KLIA has white lighting..and not carpeted... :P anyways....alright here I am..at HK airport...looks a bit like..Thailand airport!..hmm...anyways....

Is that starbucks?YES IT IS!:D first starbucks I saw in HK!awesome!No time to stop there to have coffee though...= .but even if i had time I wont order coffee also..i'll order green tea latte...Hmm...I still wonder how does green tea latte taste like in HK...regret didn't try....anyways..this part of the airport...the ceiling is a bit higher...

OK.....check your flight...so you know which side to go to..hmm..and below that you have a toilet!so convenient!:P time at the moment?1.45pm!

The worse part of any trip to anywhere would be the immigration place...I hate passing through immigration...it ruins the whole "holiday" mood...you have to wait in line..short line is fine..but super long line...and usually the immigration fellow isn't friendly at all..so....NOT COOL!!The one in HK isn't that bad...quite alright...the line wasn't that long..and they work fast....probably the worse was Canada when they willl scrutinise you and ask loads of questions!!Security is super tight....makes you so tired after that...then..no mood anymore...aiyo..alright..let's proceed.In HK the counter was divided into "Macao citizen, HK permanent residence, HK citizens, and Visitors"....the line was confusing..at first..there's one line..that leads to other lines...that ONE line..will break into several lines...each will lead to different different types of passports you have..!So be careful...later end up in wrong line and then....need to line up again..aiyo....

USually it's "do not litter"..but here...a sign for smoking!!!!I was so happy to see that....back home...they would place the picture only...and no fine written..but here...got fine!YAY...perfect....HK$5000..that's around RM2500...and..I noticed something while in HK..there are so little people who smokes!Something that I really like and admire about this place..!!Can actually count with my fingers how many people who smokes in whole HK...awesome!

This is the waiting hall....anyway...here's a bit of details on the airport..it is also known as Chek Lap Kok Airport....born in 1998...HKIA is currently the third largest airport passenger terminal building in the world!erm...I think that is all I know..:P

Snow man and Santa!!!HK ppl seem to be really into Christmas!and there's even a person dressed up as a Christmas tree....that would be an interesting job..wonder how much is the pay?I would really want to dress up as doraemon....or can of coke ...or a big mac....or...french fries....130013100..(I am hungry now..okay?)

Wednesday Morning!

2009-11-25T02:48:00.005+08:00

It's 1.48 am now.....Earlier on today, many things happened...felt like it was a dream or something.....like..did that really happened?Or my hallucination from sleeping only for an hour the night before..I was still in shocked how things have changed from before.....Where somethings were done...and now longer done anymore...This I was aware of before I started this "adventure"....I knew the risks....and yet...I ignored it.
Hope, made me go on. Love, gave me the courage,patience, and strength.It still does till this day. Because...as take from the bible...Corinthians 13...

If I speak in the tongues of men and angels,but have not love,I have become sounding brass or a tinkling symbol.
And if I have prophecy and know all mysteries and all knowledge,

and if I have all faith so as to remove mountains,

but have not love,

I am nothing.
And if I dole out all my goods,

and if I deliver my body that I may boast but have not love,

nothing I am profited.

Love is long suffering,

love is kind,

it is not jealous,

love does not boast,

it is not inflated.
It is not discourteous,

it is not selfish,

it is not irritable,

it does not enumerate the evil.

It does not rejoice over the wrong, but rejoices in the truth
It covers all things,it has faith for all things,it hopes in all things,it endures in all things. Love never falls in ruins;

but whether prophecies,

they will be abolished;

ortongues, they will cease;

orknowledge, it will be superseded.
For we know in part and we prophecy in part.

But when the perfect comes, the imperfect will be superseded.
When I was an infant,I spoke as an infant,I reckoned as an infant;
when I became [an adult],I abolished the things of the infant.
For now we see through a mirror in an enigma, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know as also I was fully known.
But now remains faith, hope, love,
these three;
but the greatest of these is love.

Anyway back to what happened.I have no idea what will happen in the future. I don't know what will happen tomorrow...or in the morning. All i do is...just take one step at the time. My conclusion for today is actually don't think to much. Enjoy each day. Life is short!Appreciate each day you have. Appreciate everyone around you. A quote that I found today made me see the brighter side of things......made me keep on going....

Courage does not roar,

Sometimes courage is a quiet voice ,

at the end of the day saying.

"I will try again tomorrow"

So have courage in everything you do and go through. And never give up....:) study hard.Live to the fullest and never look back.

For you...=)

2009-06-05T21:57:00.004+08:00

Please cheer up....everything will be alright..

Kuching #1

2009-06-05T17:51:00.007+08:00

After I heard about my H.I.S grade.....I needed some sunshine and air..to feel happier.....so I decided to take Yoko out for a walk.....

That white creature is Yoko. ...spying on the neighbours. He's a dog who doesnt know that he's a dog...likes cats and fears puppies. Yoko's last names are Mau Mau.

This is him..looking through the hole.....perhaps planning an escape!;D Wonder whats in his head?Wondering what are those shiny fast things on the road???

This is him.....doesn't like the sun to much,,,heads towards the shady area. Yoko knows about skin cancer and melanin. Yoko has very little of it.

This is Yoko...checking our the tires......

This is a post by a very bored blogger who has nothing better to do...^_^

News from ruang tutorial 3

2009-03-28T21:45:00.006+08:00

Greetings from Medan…
Today I had tutorial…..and it was the best tutorial ever!One thing is because I got to be the secretary. It’s good to be the secretary because you see, you are holding the marker and have priority to write on the board. So anything comes into you head, raise up your hand, don’t bother standing up because you’re up already and write you heart out! And for my group the secretary today decides what we’re going to talk about…..the guideline of what we talk about. This is a MUST in my present group. As our group tend to go in circles…and jump here today.I realized a guideline doesn’t mean a “guided” tutorial. But it did help.What else was good today?I actually had something to say!Not only one but more than one!lol..today I actually read my Medical Physiology book during class ( I always study in class..self studying….) .not bad not bad….I had other references….Kai Ying, Lau, Astrawinata, and etc …but Too Kai Ying’s info is always incomplete whenever her reference is from the lecture. She’ll say dot dot dot and then..the important part I could hear during class..(aiya..=.=”). She says she always misses out the important parts of her points.Funny human…;D ALrighy…..only one thing didn’t go well during tutorial! They laughed at me including the tutor, because all my references was from one ganong….then they said don’t you have other books..and they’ll say..”Let me guess Ganong again?”ish ish ish…..cilaka…Oh and my learning issue for the day is : Diagnosis/ test…YESHH.easiest one..^.^”
More on "life inside the "ruang tutorial" "

Some humans are like a recorder machine!

Sometimes I dream of doing this..."snooze"..SLEEPING and NOT DEAD...that's saliva coming out from the mouth not BLOOD!!

TUtorial is full of drama!!!
Thoughts and Feelings a.k.a choco chip of the day :
1.Happy because it’s a happy day..and no rain….and had a long nap.
2. Very full from dinner.STUFFED………I feel that I suddenly turned into an apple shape….talking about apple..why apple?ball shaped is a nicer way to describe it..or round shaped..why fruits? I’m definitely an apple…..=p

3. What’s up with someone…been acting strange...
4. I don’t like ikan lele..
5. Don’t feel like studying now…..aiya…why why…..
6. I still don’t like carrots….
7. Need to put clothes into suitcase….
8. Do ERP on Monday……!!!
9. Exam in 1 week….
YOU CAN DO IT!

2009-03-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

Listening to : Westlife "when you're lookin like that" (lol)..
Doing : Not studying.
Why can't I log into Msn?! Rawr...horrible connection. I can't even check my e-mails. I can only sign in to blogspot.So sad.Anyway, tomorrow I have lab!Don't feel like studying!why?!hmm....it's just not me to study just after an exam.It's against nature...My topic on Tuesday is "how to diagnose Diabetes Mellitus" easy topic no problem.There will be a holiday this Thursday, Nyepi day , whatever that is...don't care..it's a holiday....yay....

News from ruang tutorial 3

2009-03-22T17:31:00.007+08:00

Be nice. Those words are the words I frequently repeat to myself. To remind me to be nice (obviously). Ever since I came to this place it seems that I’m becoming “less nice”. I definitely blame tutorials for it! You see, it seems that when you’re too nice during tutorials, you lose a lot. Miss out opportunities to speak and stuff. And there’re people who annoy me a lot where they repeat what has been spoken out, or speak out loudly what you have said before, and the most annoying one is where people ask questions they already know the answers to. For example like…. Person A:“why is so and so like this?” ….Person B (who is standing infront of her/his flip chart trying not to be a complete idiot): Erm…erm..not sure. Person A: *smiles* . Leader of that day’s tutorial : “Person A do YOU know the answer?” Person A “ why yes!”*goes up and replaces person B’s place. Omg….if you already know the answer DON’T ASK!!!!Wana hit your head with my Harper’s Illustrated biochem book AAA!!!! It’s better if you say “oh I have some information to add”.and then say it...better.. Rawr…annoying.Can’t wait for my next semester where I get a new tutorial group.GOSH!! My previous tutorial group was 100% more lovely…..they don’t make me want to throw my eraser at them…..my previous group (B14) was more useful….less waste of time….less no-brain people...what we discuss about was more arranged and organised…not like NOW.RAWR…..OH and SOMEONE actually said…92% of the whole of world population suffers from Diabetes Mellitus Type II…(what the*$@*&$) I kept repeating what she said so that she COULD HEAR what she had said….but she said yea yea…goodness…enough said…headache later…

Anyway…………….

Tutorial room..lovely place..

Mr/Miss-ask-how-on earth-i would-know-the-answers-to questions

.......

It's annoying sometimes when someone just doesnt stop talking....it's fine only if that person has something useful to say..not just repeating what other people say....just we got it already!!!and some people just gives you a headache....don't know why...i call it disoriented speech...almost as bad as a knock on the head...

It's not that i'm against people askin questions...no certainly not...I like it when people ask..it tells you that there listening...and paying some amount of attention...BUT...please it's irritating when someone asks STUPID questions....do NOT do that....be rational...don't be stupid.

Note:sorry if i hurt anyone in this blog.i didn't mean it...just joking yea..=p

Etcs
Good news: Found a place that sells foreign magazines! Super-duper $$ though..at least RM20 ++ for magazine..where you could get it for like RM10 in Malaysia..or even less!

Today: Had tutorial on Diabetes Mellitus, blahblahblah…didn’t say much…how disappointing…and then….went to Sun plaza….bought DVDs….4 of them..buy 2 free 1….about RM5 a piece.quality quite good.not bad….Valkyrie,Wild Child, Confessions of a shophaholic, and The adventures of Food Boy (lol….it has the guy from high school musical in it, not Zac Efron, the other guy, the blond, Sharpay’s brother? Food boy movie was very Disney channel-ish….not bad…I enjoyed it…LOL….about a guy who has super powers! His name is Ezra, who wishes to be noticed, and suddenly he develop this gift where he could magically produce food from his hands,….like make food appear. Then he thinks that this “awesome power” is a curse…goodness…I wish I could do that!!!What food I’ll make appear? Bbq Sweet Corn!or…..bbq plaza…(what’s with the bbq?).. My gosh…I miss bbq plaza…at sunway pyramid….T.T*sob*..blargh…ok ok..back to Petula. I am hungry! Today bibi cooked the “snake like fish!!” AGAIN.MY GOSH…please la…I hate that fish….I don’t really like fried fish..some more snake like fish..I call it prison food..or hospital food. Eeeeewww…….no appetite already….

Okay….better sleep…tomorrow I want to go online!

2009-02-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

Phew..got myself out of a problem there.Thank goodness:) Was worrying all day long.Thought i lost my tiny mind..just needed something to erase it..=P and all is FIXED.for now.i hope..i hope it's permanent.It's just not the right time....or right human...right year.all wrong..right number...right colour or alphabet...just WRONGGG=P

It's 1 am....time to study peripheral system...i hate CNS block,it's so much work really...requires thinking...and larger brain capacity...HELP!

2009-01-16T19:27:00.003+08:00

It won't stop raining!all day long..rain rain and rain......Autumn in Kuching?blame it on global warming......anywayz....did a bit of shopping today...nothing much..sent Yoko to the vet....they had to knock him out for few hours to groom him n cut his nails...coz he's too fierce and all.Yoko has really bad temper.I should start packing.Hungry!Eat first then pack.....*tummy growls*what should I eat?Delivery?Wish can go out......HUNGRY!

Note to future self: Study everyday...not last minute!Last minute= stress!!!!STUDY EVERYDAY!BE A GREAT DOCTOR XD lol..what am i saying....*piak*

Eat eat..come eat..dont be shy!

2009-01-16T10:43:00.005+08:00

TGIF?Two more days an i'll be in my room at Petula.*sobs*why do I miss home so much?Is it because I don't look forward towards tutorials?I don't mind lecture and jotting notes or eating in class or trying new food.But tutorial?I don't look forward to. I hope my group is the same as last semester's one.They're pretty laid back and fun.Never met for discussion.I find no purpose in it. Although no group if perfect..we do have our differences.But it's not that serious.
Been back in Malaysia for few weeks.about 3 +.Spent few days in KL.another few days in Bangkok and then few days in KL again..Medan...and then Kuching..getting tired of flying.Bbut thinking of flying to Bali this CNY, if anyone wants to go with me.....most people will be busy studying.blek.
Last night went to The Patio met Aricka and Fiona.Both hasn't changed that much.Aricka drove..ok driver..anyways...about Patio?it's an eating place near padungan and Dr Ha clinic...and near Hock Lee...erm i'll give it a 7 to 6....it's edible...but nothing amazing to it.I tried the mushroom soup..was homemade.yup definetly was truely homemade and not campbells..not that I have anything against campbells.CAMPBELLS is yummy..=P I also tried the turkey ham potato salad.was..yummy...not enough turkey ham...potato was sufficient..dressing was okay...looks okay....green vege is abundant...grated cheese present as well...next i tried the onion ring....erm...it's okay...NOT the best onion ring...maybe a 6/10....The restaurant felt too empty...need more warmth.=P I duno...just feels too much space i guess.anywayz...it is OKAY......should have taken some pics...blek.

One of the new year's resolution

2009-01-01T02:25:00.001+08:00

Im bad in this..hence must improve....."keeping in touch with friends!"keep losing them...blek....

2009

2009-01-01T02:13:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh...2008 flew by so fast!i could still remember the time i wrote my last new year's post!it was on carrots...and i drew a picture!i guess 2008 was a really wonderful year i guess..achieved a few things.not bad...haha....anyway Happy new year everyone..2009...*takes a deep breath*....gambatte.=)

2008-11-20T19:51:00.001+08:00

Hello World.
Been very busy.hee.Anyways.This week’s tutorial was a-okay. The facilitator was nice. Not some crazy lecturer this time. Well it’s just the 1st tutorial of the week. Ca’t judge the lecturer until the second week.
This block( the third block) hasn’t been that interesting yet..the most interesting was probably the second lab which was Pathology Lab..Introductory class still..walked around the lab.watched the lab assistant cut up a uterus of a very sick person >_<>_<..cut it up….pour some oily liquid out.was as big as a mango…..gigantic..but the man said it’s not the biggest he has seen..okiieeeee…anyways…

Thoughts about people here: Epp.people here crazy like nuts…it’s not even that near to exam.. but they’re studying from sunset to sunrise..crazy crazy….I seem to be the laziest among them..=P oh and people from the hostel seem to like to play games and order a lot of Mcd during exam…and Too Kai Ying sleeps a lot during exam….same with me. Why?oh why? Cannot be explained by science, it’s due to nature.

Thoughts about food: Generally spicy.Pizza hut is yummy here. KFC here is an insult. Mc Donald here is okay..has rice in its menu..strange..=P

Thoughts about transport: Cheap.BUT,don’t like it.there are no buses here..just beca and those mini vans..strange right…and people here overuse the honk. ANNOYING.

Thoughts about the weather: Hot.like the food.Cold when it rains.

Thoughts about the malls: hmm….Good enough…at least bigger than Kuching’s mall.(I miss The Spring)

Stuff aren’t here: 100 plus , ribena, 7/11 shop,Alcohol 70 % to clean hand,

New stuff coming up: Hagen Daaz shop. New hospital. New uni wing.

Note to self: Study harder! Don’t sleep too much!!

Hello!

2008-10-03T09:15:00.002+08:00

Boo!!I'm back in Kuching. Having my 1 week of holiday.WHeee....Unfortunately.....I still have holiday homework on albinism and studying to do...=( why must you ruin our holidays!!!!Oh and Selamat Hari Raya....I feel that this year's raya deco is lacking....tsk tsk...must do better next year yea??*yearning for raya kuih lapis**sob*Haven't had any yet.....
HOw's holiday been huh...haven't contacted any of my friends yet.^_^"Don't know...just feel like sleeping all day long....nope haven't touched my homework yet...lazy...started reading my notes..on..communication skills and healthy paradigm..blek..couldn't go inside my head...dang you holiday mood!Shrunk my already pea sized brain into a speck of nothing!!

Kuching~
After been away from home for about 2 months plus.....makes me love Kuching so much!;D You appreciate home more when you're home.Great to be back!!!(w00h00)anyway,Kuching hasn't changed much though...there are changes but not much=P There's a starbucks that's opening up on Jalan song...odd location huh...it's near the Singapore Chicken rice place.Oh and there's a Mc D at the airport now.=P and they have this new fries(limited time only)..They're called chilli fries....and they have this chilli nuggets..don't really like them to much...too chilli-ish...not enough "nugget-ish"....chilli killed the nugget's nice taste.Chilli flakes should never be combined with fried chicken.just doesn't taste that right.Yawn...HUNGRY.got to find food now...BRB;D

2008-07-19T21:00:00.002+08:00

Just installed the Ipod touch software ...stupid money faced apple!....they should have made it free!since we bought their product d...But I shouldn't have bought it...^_^" but i couldn't refrain myself!!!TOok me sooo long to download...RARRR!!!!anyway it looks so cool! $9.95 and you can download everything else..My favourite application should be the "ipint" thing turn's your ipod into a pint of beer..long story^-^" hard to explain..it's so cooooolllll...anywayssss whoever is thinking of downloading it...JUST DO IT!it's worth it........
Oh...and i'll be on the 8th of Aug 2008...1 pm....(yippeee) and coming back in december....yea yea..won't be skipping Christmas :)....I'll be home for Christmassssssss...OK!SNAP OUT OF X-MAS MOOD! Oh and to kah yee..Hi!And To T.E.G don't know when I'm going back to Kuching...but very soon.and to Distal Convoluted Tubule.."hi!!!I've cut my hair"^-^" yea yea i know "Cheh"
ok...im done..Dasvidaniya!

2008-05-20T16:26:00.003+08:00

stupid paper.stupid UM no air-con..so hot...paper so tough...maybe im too brainless.oh so sad..*sob* anyway...now I am free to plaaaayyyyy!^-^ oh reason why i put the tree pic up is because..im turning GREEN ^-^.....i mean "GREEN" not literally....so repeat after me...your enemy is plastic friend!(no your enemy is not your friend..and DONT love your enemy..) reason?nothing better to do ^-^ anyway..getting headache...need COCA COLA...coca cola....mmmmm....stupid paper!=P must think of happy tots.......

2008-05-14T21:04:00.003+08:00

La la la la....*brush away dust* uuuuu.....nice effect from the scattering of light from the light reflected in many normals from the dust particles^_^ what a pretty view!anyways....preparing for my exam..die die...DIE....can't use calculator...must memorise all the square roots!so fun^_^manage to memorise until square root 10 only...should be sufficient...=P now must memorise all the logs...^_^so much fun!memorise all the sin and cos and tangen already...*cheer*so FUN....anyways..thinking what to do tomorrow...what should I eat..Mc Donalds again?NO WAY...later bump into someone's best friend...WE DONT LIKE YOU)...anyway..where was I...Oh FOOD...mc d again?Should I try Mega mac?(bigger version of big mac)....If i try...must know where's the nearest hospital.hmm...risk of jaw being dislocated very high eh....dangerous..anyway....I'm very BORED...astro not working because someone misplaced the new astro simcard...(simcard???like handphone?is that how it's called?)
OH..watched Ironman and WHat happened in vegas the other day...Ironman...better than expected...just wonder why the villian's iron suit is so much bigger than the other guy's suit..shesh..and I think the shiny thing on his chest was KEWL...didn't really want to watch it because wasn't and ISN'T a fan of the actors and the actresses.dont remember why really..but it was pretty OKAY...better than what happened in vegas...although the latter was less stressful...hmm cameron lookssss old !epp...and ashton...ish..idiot..=P

kk that's it for now..tata!(mELON HEAD)

D@mai tr!p on CNY

2008-02-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

Well,firstly I should say Happy Chinese New Year to those who celebrate..and happy holidays for those who don't!May the rat year bring you happiness and prosperity!Rat..eeee..kinda eee that a year is after a RAT..scavanging animals that bring eee diseases!Maybe it's because rats are strong animals I guess...can live anywhere and eat anything..a quality rats should be proud of I guess.and for those we are born in the year of the dragon?well.."they"(feng-shui masters..lol) say we'll have a great year!yay!I hope so..but not so great for those born in the year of horse..(uh huh).:P Anyway enuf of sot and know it all feng shui masters.........here's how I welcomed the squeak-licious furry cheesy year..=P

What more proper way to celebrate then to MUNCH.CRUNCH.SWALLOW.Food unites everyone anytime!:P

Soup+cherry+inside coffee cup.How can anything be more perfect than that!=>

Yee Sang:For decoration purposes.Not edible.looks like arts and craft.taste like one.Ekk!

Carrot.Ew.Ew.Ew

ew.EW.EW.EW.EW.VERY.EW.

Oranges!No new year is a new year without ORANGES!(incase you're wondering,yes they're sweet!yay=> )

Happy People! :P

And after the lunch....straight to the beach we went!wheeee....

Here we are!At the entrance.yay.

The beach at 10am.There's Juon and her mummy!

Look at what my cousin found!Giant lala!Yay.

Tried to make mermaids tail from sand.But this is the closest we got.Ah well.BOO!

Cath and I at the beach.So tiny^^

My sand pig!What's with the face?It's sunny!what to do:P

Cath and I.AGAIN.

That's Camillia.Leaving her mark on the sand.OI!pijak my name huh?!ish ish ish.It says : Camillia,Ano-Belle 7/2.

Pair of feet chilling whilst looking at the sea.Ahh...

*SNAP*very hard to smile directly into the sun ^.^"

Hand.Mighty Strong hands!Meant and born to build mighty sand castles!!

Lion dance!

Juon trying to pull lion's tail off.

Up the lion goes!

Lions' behinds.:P

Woops.Lion broke the hotel's flower vase.Is that an omen?:P

How about rolling oranges down a slope?

2008-02-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

YES!Last day of russian class tomorrow!But still...I should celebrate yet....3 hours on verbs is a bit too much.Don’t know whether the headache i’m having is from Russian verbs,specs or perhaps i caught a bug somewhere..somehow..hmm...Haih..I have to go shopping tonight..lazy to drive!!!Especially at night!!I don’t like driving at night.A bit “buta ayam”(chicken blind..or blind chicken)..I dun really trust my night judgements!Don’t want risk cute:P must keep cute away from all dangers!Including my mum!:P Okie here’s in my shopping list given by my mum(she’s in kl can’t buy): Oranges in box!(simple no problem i see oranges everywhere)...but sweets ones?erm...er..i don’t know!How would i know if it’s sweet or not?squeeze it?soft oranges are sweet right?should be.Sniff it?hmm..oranges all smell like oranges..throw it into the air?Sweet ones fly higher :D

Orange angel =D

anyway,next on list: kuih bakul..(sticky sweet thing that’s almost impossible to cut through)
this is a "kuih bakul"..:P

...and next is:acar...(preserved cucumbers,carrots,shrimps,chilli,vinegar and...etc) ...yup those three things..maybe I should buy them from Spring.Easier to park than everrise.less uncivilised drivers.Not saying BDC ppl are uncivilised drivers..just that SOME people who drive there is not civilised:P Like go against the arrow...especially the road near HnL..rar..its a one way road!!and duno how to use signal..ish ish ish...anyway...must stop criticising other people’s driving...because im no better:P or WORSE..eep...you see i drive really really slow..40km per hour is my normal speed..tsk tsk..imagine 40 km per hour on right lane...tsk tsk..im nuisance..it’s alright i don’t mind being honked at...SAFETY FIRST!!go ahead honk me...at least im SAFEEE!!!:P ah i learnt also that must avoid driving lorries,and buses..because they always stop at the wrong place..wrong time..shesh. and bro said don’t honk tinted car...or any car...later the person from that car will break ur car window:P lol..alrite..keeping that in mind....
*sniff*aih i have blocked nose..NOOO!!!cant be!Im going to Damai this thurs!I had my flu vaccination this year d!what is this!!!I musn’t get sick..gona eat vit c later...tsk tsk bad habit...I only eat my vits when im sick..lazy swallow...no no..more like SCARED.Too tramautised after i choked on panadol when i was small:P and chocked on heart chocolates xD ..ANYWAY...tata..hmm cant go visiting this year..aiks so sad...no red packets..no bling bling...can I have a pre CNY visit?:P and one more strange thing..rabia’s drug junkie friend is talking to me..sud i be very afraid?YES!and oh yes haven’t posted Malacca trip pics.woopsie^_^”

YAY!!! =D...............booooooo!!!!!!=|

2008-01-30T20:46:00.000+08:00

Say hello to my new yellow friend!Isn't it adorable?Almost as adorable as the owner kofff..:P I just got it yesterday^_^Couldn't drive it too far though..no road tax n no P sticker..drove around BDC only..no police bah..what are the chances of police being in BDC?very low....:P anyway..I know some ppl find plastic wrapped seats are annoying...(my sis does...what's her prob! ) but i intend to keep it there as long as possible...=> My love's too precious..

anyway...

Here's it's back.....^.^yeelllooowwwww pooweerr!Who chose this colour?ME..was either black or yellow or red..mum didnt approve black...said it's dangerous:P uh huh...green also bad...camouflage...silver..also bad..can really be seen..adeh...not much choice left.This car doesnt come in red..so...yellow it is then:D The plate number was even harder to choose.Was supposed to be 999..then mum said no coz 999 has to do with "emergency or ambulance" then...666..no...dad said.."sick sick sick..n devil's number..very ah beng-ish"...adeh..

BOOOO...=

Ah..this is is hind wheel...YES IT'S A SCRATCH....A BIG BIG SCRATCH..the horrro..oh my darling yellow thing....*screams*!T.T..mum bang the car into a wall while driving out tonight..it's 2nd drive...2 day's old...haih..*sob*....thank goodness the impact wasn't that hard..if not..*poof*6 air bags xD....*touch wood*...hmm...any suggestions to fix this?MARKER?:D spray paint?:D crayola?:D.... glitter glue!!!eeeee!!

2008-01-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

W00psie d@isy!Didn’t even write a New year’s blog..the shame!=P Is it too late to post one now? Nah..the year is still young=D Where to begin???Hmm..I don’t know why I can’t really blog anymore..what happened to the days of extremely long posts(and essays)?Lost.Gone.Missing.Hiding.In Hawaii with my other half of brain sipping mocktails while playing gin=P Anyway..must learn to appreciate my present brain and abilities I guess.Back to “The New Year” now. What shall I expect this year?Hmm..D3FINAT3LY SN0W!=D SNOW @ng3ls!...alright that can’t all be it right? Certainly “2008” shall be a challenging year.Long hour classes.Polishing my hidden cooking talent..quite an unfamiliar area..Lost W0rld Of Bei..A heaven waiting to be unvealed.....IM A GIRL !Surely I can cook better than those guys at Pad Fak!I HAVE TO!I MUST!MESTI!GirlP0w3r!*Sprinkle glitter dust on everything*H@h!!

@nyway....
B3f0r3 going on with 2008 let’s go back to 2007 =D

*fly*whEE!*SWIRL.TWIRL.SPIN.FLIP*

2007.Hellos.Goodbyes.Reunions.Joy.Sadness.Love.Split-ups.Argument.Broken Promises..Licence.Inch Taller(?)End of A-Levels.Beginning And End Of Uni.Europe.China.UAE.Death.Divorce.Subang Jaya.168 U.SS15.Bkt Jelutong.First Time Cycling on Adult Size bike.Paranoid Woman.Shake Shake fries.TGV.GSC.5th of every month.5th September.First Prom.Nominated(lol).AStarbucks(SS15).Azuki Bean Drink.Free Coffee.Choco Chip Frappucino.McD(SS15).Bubble Teas.Fish Manhattan.Chocolate Sundae.Asia Cafe.Sakae Sushi.Best Handmade Birthday Card.I am Legend.Earthquakes at Svensens.Steamboat Buffet.Honeydew Ice Cream.Pirates Of Carrabeans.Shrek.AVP2.Simpson’s Movie.National Treasure.Enchanted.Harry Potter.Fantastic 4.Transformers.9.45(?).Neopets Addiction.O2 jam.Camel Ride.Desert Safari.1st Valentine’s Day.Coca Cola and Mentos in Lab.No Gawai Year.Coloured Hair.Internet Headline.Cooked Rice correctly.Cried.Laughed.Friendster Shut Down.1st Roller Coaster Ride.Sunway Lagoon.1st Manicure.Root Canal.7 injections.Food Poisoning.Threw up Mango.Birthdays.Wishes.Rejections.Milk And Corn.Maribell.Poly Whirl.Vanilla Scent.Kuching Fest.Damai Beach Trip.Walk Around Kuching City.Dreams.Banana Pies.Lost Weight.Gained weight.Pneumonia.A2.Exam.Christmas.Raya.Weddings.Culture Shock.Roses.Lillies.Ugly Betty.Heroes.Bigger Feet.
~end~(not in order)

Haha..don’t laugh.=P Every single word did happen.Scary?Don’t be silly.Interesting?Definately.Memorable?Embedded in my half brain forever =)

*fly back to present year*SPIN.KICK.U TURN*

Lol...here I am...starting a new adventure!new page!new story!New memories to be cherished!lol.What may happen?No one knows.Not short of being excited and enthusiastic!Any new year’s resolutions?Hmm...should everyone have one?WHY NOT^_^
1.Eat more vege! Dont feed them to Yoko.Or niece.
2.Do homework
3.Dont talk in class and lectures.
4.Consume more Calcium.(hoping to grow taller)
5.Eat less sugary delights.
6.Be more in touch with feelings and other people’s.
7.Don’t be LAZY!
8.Learn not to hate carrots.
9.Control fear of lizards and pregnant women (lol)
10.Don’t make promises.
11.Don’t send other brain to Hawaii.
12.Kinder person!Be more sensitive.
13.Smaller handwriting
14.Less teeth in smile
15.Don’t give other people funny names.
16.Don’t play with food,
17.Finish food.
18.Daily prayers.

19.Bully Tong/Kitty LESS.

20.Learn to swim.

21.Acknowledge that kitties dont like orange juice

22.Don't bully grandma.

23.Groom Yoko.

24.Take labels from lab.

25.Drive above 40 km per hour.

26.Dont lose handphone.

27.Don't lose anything at all.

28.COMB HAIR with comb, not fingers!

Wah....so many..better stop now...haha..
@nyw@y....
H@ppy 2008 everyon3 =) b3st wish3s..

2008-01-08T19:31:00.000+08:00

Good evening world!=P
Earlier today me and Annie made a pledge that we shall be kids until 21!Meaning?Not become attached to anyone until 21!(*making second thoughts*) And not be matured..and be as sot as possible! :P (and what can we achieve through this?don’t know really...senseless idea) I’m sure the pros will show eventually..kids are happier group of people right?We’re kids with licence!muahahaha...shall go to her house and play PS!yay.. How did this occur?Because of one of my pics..she said i looked matured and lady like..i shrieked and..tada*vows not to grow up*=P

How did this happen?

...anyway was looking for something to read besides “clinical anatomy”....guess what I stumbled into =D two words!Che Mistry!whee hee hee!

Kimia tingkatan 5 :P I threw the other books but kept all my chem book...too precious.. *hug precious*

Label freeak!=P One page label caught my eye..the one that says "larut" what?what is larut?WHat chapter is larut...

*flipflipflip to "larut" page*

ohhh chehhhh.....now i remember why that page was under "larut"

can figure out why?:P

Announcement!

2008-01-07T12:49:00.000+08:00

My friendster is alive again!=P

Answers for those who questioned..AGAIN and AGAIN

2008-01-06T17:39:00.000+08:00

Why Ano ditched "Ano"?
Actually I don't really know...Ano's sort of a childhood name....maybe I've decided it's time to grow up!!People at home still call me that..best to keep it at home only ...Besides Ano sounds like A "no"..or An "o"...not cool eh..sud be..A "cool"=P

Or,perhaps because of someone's gingerbread poem...lol.. http://www.honeylimau.blogspot.com/ ....i wish not to be ANO =P

No more Ano then what?
call me..Bei-lay..beylei..hmm havent decided on the spelling yet..sounds like that la..=p

What happened to my friendster?
Killed it(is that right?too violent?) after I got back from Russia few months back.RUssia does something to everyone ..XD actually NOT RUSSIA..was annoyed that i was forced to go home..not easy TO FLY to KURSK YOU KNOW and FLY BACK ALONE ..dubai airport so huge..moscow airport confusing plus i got used to that place already..and had to go home...zzzz..*pening* AND No i didn't delete YOU from my friendster
account(NAOMI SHOBA).

But why do that to your friendster?
LOL i don't know.i need a psychiatrist XD

What happened to Annie's violin which i murdered?
Hmm actually,I haven't got a clue...remnants somewhere upstairs.....DO you still want it?=P it's still useable u know..just missing a few strings..can still be played..can play twinkle twinkle little star.=P can i keep the bow?;D

When im going off?
Probably middle march..er...better question is...

Where am I going next?
Not sure yet...*asking myself that question*most likely winter wonderland..but then..added one more option into my list...hmm..

Come back ?But you left that place already!why go back?
Well...I didnt want to go back.After a week of wanting to back I actually felt okay with it.Grew on me probably...and then parents kept asking me to fly back..FINE!Packed things..and said my farewells.But I think they were right.Was a good decision.Because was really sick..vomiting every meal is not that good.;D plus didn't really knw how to cook...which was a must there..since i couldn't really speak russian.There's a japanese restaurant though and thai...but cant live by that alone right?Learnt how to cook rice there!^^thanks to SOya Bean.Didn't know you have to rinse it.And there's the language barrier.....teruk..no one speaks much english..apa la...they only speak Russian,german and french.Shopping is very hard if you cant read cyrillic..you might end up buying skinned cats.They sell it at supermarkets^^interesting..PELIK..really weird country.Erm..that's it..ya..hopefully in march i'd be more prepared.At least can cook a simple meal..starting my russian classes tomorrow..."yay"...Oh ya..why that place again?Well im quite familliar with it already..plus it's in europe...every year can fly back to m'sia using different flight paths=P

What happened to John John?
Was put to sleep on 31st of dec 2007..lol..funny date..din make it to 2008..i mean...*sob*

I think that's about it....

dasvidaniya

Merry Christmas =)

2007-12-27T18:49:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas day again!!!=D *cheer*ah..last christmas in Kuching for me for the next 6 year..lol...sad?nah..*optimistic*been celebrating Christmas in Kuching for almost 20!why no spend it somewhere else right?I wont be homefor chrissstmassss..you can count on ME..something something and mistletoes!";D anyway,here are some pictures from my Christmas Eve and Christmas day=)

yay...a page from the hymm book from church(d'uh.of coz from church where else?;D)....went to the christmas eve service..too lazy wake in themorning to go to the early morning one=X..."o little town of bethlehem!" XD

This page again?aiks..;D maybe subconsciously my fav christmas song^^"sang heart out..!Until almost lost voice...NOW that's d spirit of real x'mas!no?

St Thomas' Church!When did they paint the ceiling red?hmm..*blur*

That's me...=P

Christmas day

Gifts from annie...I got the orange one..and Chin got the blue one..(mine better..lalalaala)...we had to pick a gift randomly...mystery gift^^"..desmond got the black one with bunnies..suits him..black=guy,bunny=shy =P

Annie showing off her Christmas gift.a new phone..sony!*jealous*

tsk tsk..notty notty...Chiamonds..

Again with the face covering!!!Blargh...use anything just to cover their face...dun worry my camera lenses wont crack..aih..hopeless ppl..*cheers*=_="

Orange String!=P it's the one from the spray cans...was everywhere..tsk tsk...

yes...EVERYWHERE...kids sprayed everywhere...floor..ceiling..food...face..butt..=_="

Dinner....da de dum..that's about it^^

tata!Hope you had a nice Christmas!=>

FIshcakes..(17/12/07)

2007-12-20T20:11:00.000+08:00

Fishcakes-_-“

Ouch...apologies to my feet..please don’t be angry with me.I still need you tomorrow..and many more days ;D Sorry for wearing heels feet!(brain:”although I will do it again*giggle*”)
FISHHCAKKESS!!!I’m supposed to meet None,Jo n Mel tomorrow...neither one of them has contacted me..and can’t contact either one of them also.RM 0.03 credit...FISHCAKES!zzz...*annoyed* SUNWAY PYRAMID DOESNT SELL CREDIT!!!!been walking for 5 hours...no smEELLL or SIGHT OF IT!didn’t go to the top floor though...mummy n aunties refused to..can’t leave them also..or else..they might end up God knows where really^.^”

FISHCAKES.....

Tomorrow..since no one wants to watch movie or skate with me..FINE..i go lepak on my own..*pffttt**walk away*....
Oh yes..strange, my brain is on holiday today...(happy holidays brain) you see ..was about to open a new pack of contact lenses...(*brain walks out of d door and flies to abu dhabi*)then i realised...I didn’t know if the lenses wear daily ones (new ones) or the monthly ones (old ones)...i just forgot ...-_-“ read the plastic cover...it didn’t help...said :” something bla bla comfortable for daily wear” .doesn’t explain anything right?can mean both monthly AND DAILY....LOL-NESS...how can i not remember..sud i reuse it for a month..or throw it away tomorrow?;D
Anyway......
*ano off*

Pineapple tart.

2007-12-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

Today I baked SOMETHING...! EDIBLE SOMETHING!Pineapple tarts...^^It's pretty simple really...

for the dough->

You only need :

250 g of flour

150 g of butter

1 egg

Pineapple jam*(duno the full recipe..my mummy made this ..too lazy too watch..Katamari seemed much more interesting than pineapple jam;D)

roll!ROOLL!go prince!!(green thing is princee)

*jam can be replaced with anything...I think fried mushroom and cheese wud be nice..seriously..^^

Simple right?:D

Mix all the ingredients well...and knit the dough until it's chewy..like chewing gum u chewed d and not sweet anymore sort of chewy ness..if ur fingers not used to touching chewed gum..put the dough into ur mouth..not too much..a bit will do..and feel its texture...^^"

Like this!

After you mix....(fun part)

*stampstamp*

Used homemade jam.Wellllll saw a bit how it was made.Grate pineapple add sugar and put into wok n heat until it turns into jam=P EASSYY..

End result....tada!:D oh ya baked it for about 40 minutes...

Usually i eat the rest of the tart..minus the jam^^(loook above:pieces of jam) whee..

R@nd0m pictur3s!

2007-12-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

sot human..yes yes i know PEeeeeeACE :P at the back,Davin n Aurelia

2006,mini reunion at Chef's house.Present:from left Aurelia,EkGuan,Davin,ME,Annie Sitting:Keith..duno y he's d only one sitting..:P

Prom!at JW Marriot .anticlockwise:Tong,wai yee,me,mel,none,su lynn,isabel

Patrioticnye,Merdaka Day!at st mae....*wave flag*..Chiat n Me

At St Mae's library..During SPM..Me and Diana.G.Who took the pic?hmm

From left:Chiat,Substitute teacher 4 english,me jeral and shirley law;P rebe wasnt there in the pic because she wore uniform that day;P teruk!and btw that's the teacher who told 100 students to go into their school's pond...lol..of all the ppl.

Tong on the phone,me...n han yin..at prom..tong:carrot

mel(taking pics of leng chai),none n jo

Chiamond :D at mond's house on CNY.

Han Yin,KFC,TONG,n Su Lynn..last day of a'lvls.at that place opposite old town.4got d what it was called;P

ahem....last day of a'lvls at the parking space.Han Yin,Aldehyde n Jo

lol..han yin n TONG.

CNY at mond's house.rabia always wears stripes huh^^"making use of optical illusion..;P

she told me not to put this up..*rebel* muahahahah...guess whose room?;P

Happy birthday Anni3!

2007-12-06T19:59:00.000+08:00

RABIA!U ruined the pic..;P teruk girl.*piak*trying to steal annie's limelight ha..aish....

Cute cake!just like the birthday girl!Bought it that morning with CHiatMond at BDC...(chiat+desmond)...

Tun Jugah!White pale hand..who else..;P the birthday girl..wah we finished the cake..;P

Tun Jugah!And look who we bumped into!ALVIN!hmmm birthday girl missing in action..teruk! and CHiat's other half also entah where:P

Star Cineplex!watched enchanted.WAS OKAAYYY...Feel like kicking that squirrel..and giselle too..annoying..:P

22/11/07

2007-11-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

(ya my smile so big until can fit cars houses n trees on it..and wud crush n kill anyone beside or nearby me)

What's wrong with my smile??!!!!!

Seriously what's wrong with it???My mummy said it's TOO BIG..showed me pics of ME WITH MY SO CALLED OVERLY STRETCHED SMILE=.=" za dou..want me to change my SMILE??! what the....what's next change 'the way i WALK?!!!EAT?TALK?goodness...

T0day's Mandarin Class

Learnt a poem :D IT's dedicated for whoever's away from home :)

Chuang gian ming yue quang

Yi shi di shang shuang

Ju(no not PIG..but the 3rd sound) tou wang ming yue

Di tou si gu xiang

(anyone khows which dynasty this is from?:P and the meaning?)

AND:

Ma ma qi ma ma man ma ma ma ma

(mother riding horse slow mother scold horse)

Sorry i ommited the sound thingy :P

oh ya one more thing..tday's class teacher looked like brandon..omg...i found another set of twins!!!

2007-11-21T15:36:00.000+08:00

Bzzzz..annoying people at home..can't take it and yet no where to go....anyway,woke up at 10.30 today..ya I know kind of late.THATS because I'M BEING DEPRIVED OF SLEEP!!!!!argghh!!!!to make milky for niece everynightT.T help me..what have I ever done to deserve this....im to young to babysit at night!!!EVERYNIGHT!!!!bzzzz I never wanna have kids..but then I shouldn't say that right?..I should be caring I should be caring :P I can't take everything it's too muchT.T....I'll get a shih tzu or a goldfish next time..no kids!..I wanna go back to 408T.T TO make things worse...MY ROOM HAD BEEN SNATCHED AWAY FROM ME!!!I have no where to go...my stuff are all over the house..the whole house is my room..and parents will say: "OH put your stuff at one place..pick up your things" one place?! WHERE???KITCHEN?pic a corner at home?=.="I have this big journal...still figuring out where to put it...>.<

This morning :

Look at juon’s head!!!it’s HUGE and bloody!it’s more obvious without the bandage.Something like momo’s head last time..the goldfish with the enlarged head.She’s so notty!that’s why ler...babysitting her is so stressful!!Jump jump...and bang her forehead on the the sharp corner of the door.it’s the 4th of 5th time we’ve rushed her to the hospital because of head injuries..aihhh....

Bo su cho art.Pretty?Drew it outside sis' house with chalked..paper is so cliche xD so we decided to move to drawing floor...next?wall?juon's face?xD wahahhaha...

About the co-author :P

2007-11-20T17:05:00.000+08:00

As you can see there's another co-author of this blog.That was because I wanted the blog to continue be active whilst im gone.Hmm having second thoughts about that now.

In short....

SHOO...go n blog at your own blog :P

it's more fun that way no?Too confusing having two owners xD

My apologies~*

Cl@rity

2007-11-20T01:20:00.000+08:00

After that last blog,things are more clear now....I think I have made a decision..^^

Ouch I'v Been Forked!

2007-11-20T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hello! I have been given a task that will decide my future!!!!What would it be??How should I choose it??Feel like Meredith from Grey's anatomy xD should i think like Grey?BLargh Grey's not even real!PLUS She makes lousy decisions!FINN IS BETTER..!!McDreamy is hotter BUT BUT HE LEFT U !!!blarghh!!!!reminder: NOT REAL

anyway...
Back to earth

Should I be a doc?Is medicine right for me?How would anyone know!how is my decision more right than a flip of a coin?Yeaa i know..coins can't reason..:P Do I enjoy helping people?I should say yes..well that's what everyone has been taught since small right? Well..I don't really enjoy that..blargh what's wrong with me...maybe I've never really helped anyone at all. I enjoy helping anonymously..yes I do..but helping with sick ppl?It doesn really feel like helping really....or because I'm a sadist xD

Next decision is more on the relationship wise...
I've just realised IM AN EVIL WITCH! :P i dont cast spells..no ...but IM EVIL!I only want things i cant have!after that...poof interest lost..what is wrong with meeeeee...Is it "L" that im going thru now?what is "l"?I dont know..gosh..does anyone know?am I in "L"?I have to makea decision soon!I dont wanna be in this dilemma!its choking meeeeee...blarghh...if im having this difficulty deciding..sud be a sign that there's something lacking rite?lacking in "l"?if i dun "l" that person then why am i still attached?the LDR is the cause I guess...but...I guess time will tell..=)

Goodnite....

A Dream To come truee^^

2007-11-14T02:00:00.000+08:00

Might as well post tis too XD
Ahh i wish upon the starrssss.
It'll surely come one day.

coming soon

2007-11-14T01:38:00.000+08:00

this is the future me!well sort of n hopefully=P I really wish I can come again....plsplsplsplss?

dieeeeee!!!

2007-11-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

blaaaaablaaaaablaaaaa

2007-11-14T00:47:00.000+08:00

Life isn’t fair!!after snooping through someone’s friendster...i realised it’s just so not fair..patasmoosa?saw pg got accepted into somewhere..goin uk..entah do what..but but..it’s PG!so so...STRANNEY!!peliknyeeeee....is there a God out there?NO I’m not doubting there is ONE.Of course there is one..and im not questioning Him:P NO...but just saying im surprised.There’s no such thing as karma..nothing...maybe some people are born lucky!I guess so huh?have to live and learn how to accept that.Should I now turn into evil and rebel the heavenly decisions?LOL...sot.You JUST SEE!xD KIDDING..Of course not.FOOOO....I guess the only thing left to say is “WE’VE BEEN BAMBOOZLED”! Goodnite=)

Sunday Morning

2007-11-12T20:03:00.000+08:00

Ahh... a slow and quiet sunday has arrived.

My 1st sunday without any control tests the next day. Left only an Aba menye essay (bout myself).

woke up wif misty windows... yep. vry rare since air here is too dry. Dry DRY drying off my skin vry vry fast. Face will crack into half by winter XD

Was lazy-ing back to sleep when... a hand shot out from above the bed pointing a Middle at me.

SO its good morning. waiting for evey1 to wake up so he cud get down and shishi (double decker ladder not arrive yet) He's picked up a strange habit of surprising me from behind and say the F word. then, walk away-.-

Not much today, having cereals while waiting for chin to show up

Microwave Fear

2007-11-04T15:16:00.000+08:00

Before microwave

Gona die from cancer. All 3 of U! shoo and go away.im gona die earlier than u. don wan be ur fren anymore.

thts ur comments on my Brownies. And its only my first time baking them and i rarely use microwave. Anyway, ill just post it here.

The radioactive brownies after its done

Kitty Reporting from Kursk

2007-11-04T14:34:00.000+08:00

Hi there!
Kit's here in bloggie bringing u updates fresh from Kursk!

Warning : extremely unexperienced blogger, unpin my posts if u feel like, Belle =P

Ah... been almost 2 months since ive landed in tis weird place. 1 half month since i last saw uu.

so, hmm... why kursk for medicine where there's so much better place?
1. Most Asian uni in Russia. Specifically, filled wif Mostly Malaysians in 2 hostels.
2. convinient, filled wif markets and shopping mall(s) (got more further away by bus)
3. Lots and lots of chocolate, yummy milk ice creams, cheese yoghurts and err... all sorts of food u can find except spicy products XD (note to Ano: Squirrel! not kitty cat in freezer)
4. Cheap, extremely gr8 malaysian community etc

will be updating Blog wif picstures and happenings so u wont feel too bored at home =P

-kit-

Food Art =P

2007-11-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

YOU LIIIKKEEEEE?:D Created this during lunch=P

Bad Hair day

2007-11-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

Yoko so ugly d after his haircut...=P looks like a lamb....very eeEeeEEee....

This is for getting 5s!

2007-11-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

Friendster Layout

From,Russia,Dubai,and China~*

2007-11-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

Boredom...the reason im here...typing the time away.....:P blogblogblog..I have forgotten the art of blogging already...where to begin? Pictures are time savers and much more interesting that words no?

pictures coming up
reason why I picked blue?It keeps you calm and patient while waiting for the pic to download...smart eh? xD

What I've been up to lately?

Few days before~*(Keeps staring at any blue coloured thing if you're feeling unpatient :) )

Nanning,China.Behind me?Largest bronze drum in the world :D (kononnya la..XD)

Here's a snap from the CAEXPO(China-Asean Expo Trade).The convention centre was gazillion times larger than KL's Convention Centre.Gila besar.Can fit everyone in Kuching inside and still have space to boogie:P ANYWAY...oh yes..Nanning's size is about the size of Kuching...Population?6.5 mil.SARAWAK'S population?3 mil..^^" something to ponder about eh?it's not even their capital city!WE NEED TO REPRODUCE MORE!! =P

Guangzhou airport.where I got quarentined for the fear of spreading H2N1 virus.:P STUPID body heat detector machine...indicated I had fever....=.="Their fever was anything above 36.8.My temp was 37 degrees celcius.=.=shesh.Released after 10 minutes.ish ish ish...IM NOT DISEASED!

Moscow Airport,Russia.

Blue Church,Kursk,Russia.Very mosque like eh?sot.

Info on Kursk: About 970+ years old.History?Where the Germans lost to the Russians.Er apa lagi...famous for their Subs,7 roubles=1 ringgit..which is the cost to go to uni..or anywhere else in town....religion?Ortodox Christians..people who wear a lot of black in church..creepy.Food?Westernish and a lot of potatoes..they sell kitty cats in supermarkets...civet cats.

Memorial Park,Kursk,Russia.eeee sure got lots of hantu here.More than Pak Fad.Wondering what's Pak Fad?Shall get to that soon.Anyway,See those purpled laced shoes?Aih....miss them...tucked somewhere in Russia d.See you soon!someone said..I look like a penguin....=.= cis...

NEXT...~*

This is Pak Fad Hostel.Short for Pre-medical Hostel.Room number?408(t.Neighbours?Russians and Viet.The bottom bunk's mine.The top one Imelda..my roomate..From Pak Fad Faculty.I assume Pak is pre and Fad is medical so im Fad..:P The one with the cola bottle is my table.^^

Frequent visitors of 408. (from the left: Soya Bean,Ben and Imelda).The night before I left.Oh look a giant suitcase in the middle of the room!

From left...Jet..henry(goodmorning!he says that randomly..like..Hmm i need to do my homework..GOOD MORNING..or.*eating*good morning.) and soya bean..

Left:wenkie,Jason and me.I cant tell you why i did that nose pinching thing...something to do with CRABSTICK.if you're REALLY CURIOUS..contact me personally...=p

me and soya bean.a lot of soya beans here..and oh ya!To Duo Tong and anyone who knows Han yin: This is Han Yin's twin!wah..seriously..talks like her..acts like Han Yin...Han Yin more evil la...that's for sure..=P BUT REALLY!HAN YIN I FOUND UR CLONE!Must meet next time^^"(eeee my room really messy)

Recognise this anyone?FINE..EVROPA la...tsk..blur head...

A tree (d'uh).Looks like a wizard head eh?Found this at the memorial park..interesting :D

My room..:P is that a can of sweet corn?=.+

Uni.=D

Sunset in Dubai.Pretty eh?=D That is all sand btw^^

EKK my hair...xD Didn't know the desert was that windy!

Few hours left!

2007-06-13T23:53:00.000+08:00

Ah..whee few more hours left and i'll be free!A FREE THING!UNCHAINED TO DO ANYTHING AT ALL!!*sits at the corner* aih...kinda boring when there's no exams....*piak self*

Anyway...

Chem II
Hmm..wasn't a pretty sight...felt easy but...after doing a bit of thinking..wah..found out a lot of erm....kecacatan..=P

anyway...

Wish me all the best for tomorrow!
*burp*eee..smells like banana n petai...

I am ALIVE

2007-06-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

It's 2 am...5th of June..and yes..(refer to the title above) I'm still alive!

anyway..that's all...just wanna un-dust my blog..that is all...

tata!

*ah one more thing...oh plz someone!donate me your neopoints!^ ^"*

and oh ya...HAPPY GAWAI =D

Valentine's Day

2007-02-15T18:48:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day is all about....

Fuzzy pink cute stuff=)

Mystery packets..........

Chocolates..........

Mystery boxes...........

More chocolates and sweets .........

Roses.........

And smiley faces.......POMELOSQUEEZER-CHOCOSTEALER-GOLDFISH-BUNSTEALER-ROSEEATER-NICEHAIRBECAUSESOMEONEAIDEDINSTYLING-FOWEVALENTINEDATE-BESTVALENTINEDATE^^

Special thanks to

The Smiley face =D

Duo Tong-cute cute thing

Han Ying-Violent Bunny/Zebra

Melissa

Naomi Shoba SUKARSAYKARUM

Wai Yee-BU

Josephine Loui-THUNDEROUS CHILD

Su Lynn-Sunshine

VIJAYA-ALDEHYDE

From the bio lab..........

2007-02-04T18:32:00.001+08:00

Geniuses at work..

Ppl admiring our pretty creations^^

hmm..why got empty space there!

this must be han yin's hand...han yin can only destroy our pretty creations only!But she was the one who made the colourful solution as you can see on the foil^^

How we made the coloured solution..

no not from some transition elements..well not that we know of that is

1)first you need toilet paper sheets

2)colour the sheet with the desirable colour..in this case we used blue inky pen,and pink inky pen.put the sheet into water you can follow what we did...we put it inside diluted acid..or was it an alkaline solution..forgot..know it was not distilled water..

3)ok...Purple was made from mixing blue with pink

4)green was made from extra leaves from the experiment..crush the leaves in distilled water..

5)Use syringe to drop it onto the foil

6)it's ok if you can create as pretty as ours...we are Lab Pro-s..

a picture says 1000 words....what can you say about this?

before i decided to post this pic...there were a lot of risks that i had to consider..

1) Risk of being kicked to the moon by momo n susu Eeppp

but..knowing some scientific knowledge being a student of science and all...our earth's gracity is just too strong for momo's tiny rat muscle...^^"

-end~

bla bla bla...

2007-02-04T18:30:00.000+08:00

WRITE WRITE WRITE SOMETHING…why am I forcing myself to post something..simple explaination.sot…or is it because..i’m trying to let something out..but but but…don’t really know how to…oink..that’s the problem.

Finallyyy this week is ending^^HORRIBLE HORRIBLE week….
2nd last horrible thing happened last night..something came back from the dead and chewed of my ear!Wahhaha..well not literally.How can I be so dumb..blind blind..haih..all the signs were there but no.chose to go against it.The question here is..can I live happily knowing this?aha..don’t really know..yes yes I know it’s the past but still..I DON’T LIKE IT!!AAAAA..-_-

2006-12-06T19:08:00.000+08:00

Today....
a)Tong became a caterpilar today..
b)None was an Orange...
c)and Han Yin was on a hugging frenzie today^^I mean..Mel-hugging-frenzie..^^
d)er..Boy boy was a mushroom like alWAYs..but he said he's a bird cage..
e)Kevin fogged B24's door's window..=P and now is officially called the window fogger..eek..don't touch the glass on door..God knows what kevin has done to it..
f)Tong and I have(the pretty and greedy duo) have a new secret admirer(doubt it's me..muahah..Tong's ler.she's juz shy to admit)^^"and of all the people..eee..better than PR rite?^^""""
g)hmm found Ms Ho might be our next bio teacher again (found this out from PG,eeek...pg is still talkin to ^^" Eeeee..some ppl are just too foWE =P)
h)Tong kidnapped my hamburgular..T_T apa apa apa apa... better bring it back tomorrow!!!!
i)Ekk..the thought of bb strawberries and someone makes me shudder...blek..contaminated
j)THey copy cat our card for Mel'sssss!!!Ya la..I know you guys got it earlier than we did..but we thought of the card 1st!

Christmas Tree IS UP!=D and shining brightly^^
Ah took us 2 hours to set up...=) aaa i love the disco balls and the tiny hats..ekk although bb contaminated the hats already..and and and...the air.^^"Hmm bb it's so pRETYY!!!!! =') *sniff*
*pics on the way...

Notice

2006-12-04T17:18:00.000+08:00

the not so mysteriousM y s t e r y D a y! is coming....

Unfinished II ( the finished)

2006-12-04T12:26:00.000+08:00

Ah this shall be the continuation for the "unfinished" entry. Ok..lets recap...the previous entry was about the last few days of college...and holiday....
Presently: ntg much has changed although between today and yesterday a lot seemed to have changed...but it went back to square 1.how lovely.The only thing that's changed now is when I'm going back to Kuching....which is on the 16th....and he's still leaving to Genting on Sunday(so much bout not going anywhere without me XP) coz..err so many reasons..-_-blek(mostly coz got no car on tues n monday..dad can't send..then borrowing one is not right n then sunday can't go out bla bla bla*headache*)....which leaves only friday and Saturday to hang out.But friday class still ends at 2=P sOooo which leaves saturday..and PROBABLY Thursday and Friday i bet something else will pop up then..so much for 7 extra days..ah I don't care anymore....I've given up caring.. Finding time to hang out is just too exhausting eh.......ya y don't I just go back to kuching on sunday!DING DING.. Maybe I just will....we'll see.It'll be more fun than staying here...but andrew's coming on the 13th..so guess im stuck here..

List of things to do:
1.Buy x'mas prezzies?
2.Read a book...haven't read anything fiction for almost a year di...=.+
3.Hm..get a new SD memory card.
4.Go n watch a 3D movie at Imax!
5.aaa register number..=P
6.drag someone to the theme park! ARIC u muz go wif me...Plllzzz..or i'll doodle ur britney posters!PATTY ALSO..
7.Learn how to swim?TO DRIVE?=D wheheheh...bit enuf time..though
8.Go to the beach!I miss damai lagoon...!
9.Bake cookies?=D
10.Paint yoko's nails!omg pour yoko with glitter!
11.Have a mini gathering for ornaments
12.Reunion
13.go terrorise ornament's house
14.build a doraemon collection!
15.STUDY?HAHAHHAHAHAHAAH...right....
16.Play card games with someone!I really miss playing speed and cheat...
17.build candy tree?=D omg..this is a must..!

Oh Christmas Tree oh Christmas TREE...wheee...AnYwAY...

what else..that's all I can think of now....

*found the similarities between all of these?something's missing...=l Bb

Unfinished

2006-12-03T14:22:00.000+08:00

I'm back!
in KL..=P Went back to Kuching for one night only..blek..kinda a waste of time.>_
Aih...5 more days till holiday....hmm..what does holiday bring me?BB-less days = and of course free time yeah PROBABLY..since I have a lot of "free time"...I should start thinking what to fill those free time up with...hmm.instead of free time I should call it.."Fill up time"...
I was thinking of getting a huge jigsaw puzzle to work on....ah...but then.doubt I have time to buy one before I go back....and doubt I can finish it since I'll be flying here and there...ok..probably the jigsaw puzzle thing isn't that good....I'll get a book instead then..yesh...but what book?Any suggestions anyone?

talking about books...omg..my library books!..zzzz..who cares..I'll return it on Tuesday I guess.. remind me someone..>_<

Blargh don't really wanna talk about the holidays lets now talk about the last 5 days...
(aah...after realising BB's going genting anyway)
blek..got no mood di..-.-don't even wanna talk about the last 5 days...I give up..WHEEE...NO Xmas tree....and I can't be bothered to find time to get one..lazy......

LAzy...to continue blog...bye bye....

2006-11-17T10:10:00.000+08:00
Dear blog visitor,

Scroll down!!=D

Random Snapshots^^

2006-10-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

From Left : Tong and Han Yin
No DUo Tong's not trying to figure out what paper smells like..^^" SHe's just camera shy ^^
FOWE ^^

Oogie!=D Look his butt is illuminating!=D
Feet=P to be more precise,Duo Tong's n ^^"'s feet ^^(from LAN class)
Ah..that's me!Looks like Ju-on rite?=D muahahhaa...muahahaha...CORRECTION,CUTE Ju-on ^^
This one's from chemistry class^^Someone didn't bring his book so he had to use this.Yes that's filter paper.the interesting was the tree(above the cat) was originally blue in colour after putting er FA1 (or something) it changed to green.^^
Ah here's another something from Moral Studies LAN class^^
Ah the scribbling beside the stick person's left hand says "to scratch bad ppl"^^

2006-10-06T20:21:00.000+08:00
Ah today's the 5th!(lol.yes d'uh) AH so what significance does today bring?=D There's class' photo taking day today, SOMEONE'S birthday, and something that was probably not important enough to be remembered by someone=P

White? OR white?

Okie...my friends and I have decided to put on white for the photo taking session. OK..thought that problem concerning what to wear was solved already..Yes the dilemma of picking what colour to wear has been solved but...which white blouse/shirt is better?=.=aih...changed twice that morning.Not that bad eh^^ So much for wanting to come earlier to college.=P
So reached college around 8.30++ and bumped into someone near the cafeteria.It was Mr "Sei".And the first thing he said was "wah why wear like that wan for ___ to see ha"=.= GOODNESS sake..=.= what's his problem.I didn't wear anything revealing what..or overly bright=.= i've worn that top before eh and no one said anything..ish...SOTSoT.

Just call me SHORT STUFF=P

Ok...before the pictures were taken the usual procedures had to be done.Lining up according to height the girl who was incharged said to me " Dear*laughs* come here" =.= she lead me to the end of the line.Told me to stand at the most end=.= GOSH!I'm taller than Suet Ling and Li Cheng!!!lol..ah but at the end I managed to convince them I'm taller =D (aiks isn't it OBVIOUS?)(no offence ^^")

SOMEONE'S all GROWN UP!*hugs*

EEeeeeeee today is someone's 18th birthday^^ I hope you had a lovely birthday ^^ hehe..Ah..though ended up with a headache at the of the day.=P you're fault!^^

aiks..forgotten to include corridor/staircase/jungle/car stories..^^"maybe next time ho..;P

No bedtime story yet

2006-10-03T20:13:00.000+08:00
Been kinda busy lately....
Sorry no bedtime story from me yet..

SOON....

very SOON...

after the stupid forum..=.=

list for santa? NOT ^ ^"

2006-09-06T11:42:00.000+08:00
1. Bb wants to be
a) respected
b)loved
c)taken care of
d) spoilt

2.Don’t endanger the lives of your loved ones! Which includes yourself.^ ^”

3.Should not be a WHS.

4.Listen to bb. It has to do with 2.a)

5. Bb should always be a good kid.Responsible to urself as well as..to bb

6. Bb should also respect bell’s ornament.

7.Bb should never swear.=P

8.Bb should be helpful to everyone.SHOULD not be evil to other people or innocent animals.^ ^”

9.Bb should never ditch bell..

10.bb should be matured but remain kiddish..^^” go figure.Matured as in well mannered ^ ^

11. Bb should never hurt bb in anyway.ANY violation of the list shall do that.

13.Bb should not be a stopwatch or anything that IMPLIES bb of being a stopwatch TO ANYONE at all.PEOPLE are paranoid.

14.Bb musn't break any law.=P this includes the 10 commandments..LOL..

15....
If you have any questions or doubts....ask away ^^

2006-09-06T10:37:00.000+08:00
Again today’s Thinking skills paper shall omitted from today’s entry..^^

After class...

For some reason...my stress level increased even higher...well it’s because I knew what was coming...just wonder how it would be.>< scary scary...not good in these things at all....
After I was told to go to B floor behind the library...I stood in front of the library for I think for one minute XD *tick tock tick tock* telling myself to calm down and all.
So I just told myself..aaa.I don’t wana make him wait...fine..*takes a deep breath and walks off* that was the longest walk I ever took..>_< I was like..oh no oh no...LOL..*sot*
Then as I walked through the dark corridors and turn right..aaaa..I could see him.LOL..so fast...*another long walk through the corridor*.
SooOO..when I got there...errr..gosh i can’t really remember what happened.=P what happened huh..=.= *scratches head* er...Hmm..I remember looking down the balcony..OKAY..then..lol..hmm...maybe I was thinking to much..that’s why I could remember anything..or probably I was too traumatised XD. Since I know he was struggling and not that ready to say anything yet..I decided to go down..=P Maybe he needed a different environment.lol.I remember going down the carpark..then went UP again to A floor..behind LT2 ..since he wanted to go there..FINE...like it makes a lot of difference^^”.
Ah..this I can remember cleary..I remember putting my bag on the air-conditioned thingy...lol..Then..he said something about being scared -.- aiks..ur scared how about me?^ ^” blargh..memory is blurry again..i remember.as he was saying something his phone rang..
^ ^”This was when I realised there was someone on the roof of the next building....
-_-” great timing..Gosh..then...He finally asked me...followed by a couple of laugh..
-_-” za dou..then..duno what I said..I nodded and smile..then...walk towards the balcony..before I was leaning against the wall..^ ^” wanted to just sit on the floor.=P
Anyway......gosh...then..I said I wanted to tell him something..then..I gave him a ^^
Then..er..he did something that made me cringe..I think I actually closed my eyes whilst leaning on the wall..-_-” za dou...Then..^^ *private and confidential*..yes this was the thing that scared me BTW=P In case you dont know..^^”
I think my face was turning hot..and slightly dazed..lol....^ ^”
And oh yes..SPOOKY! ^ ^..
I didnt want to close my eyes actually..aaaaa...lol..anyway..
I HAVE SPOOOKY!=D..Shouldn’t have done that though..=S ><
Anyway...it was an interesting experience...XD
Kk kk..what happened next..er ah yes..and ran down the stairs to meet up with the others..^^
Duo Tong was asking me..so so so so so?what was it??-_-” kepo ma..XD..
Didn’t tell her I just smiled.=P until she threatened to tell Su Lynn...CIS..what a friend..XD
Then..naomi found out as well..^ ^”....lol..Yesh yes...I know you guys can’t still believe it...but yea..it’s true..=P
( was still at the state of daze btw ^^”)

Lunch....

Arrived at McD and zzzz..there wasn’t any seat available..so naomi and I decided to go to the ATM machine. ^ ^’’ then Melissa tagged along as well..da de dum de dum...and ah yes..Found out that Jean was coming..I had no problem with that..but er...apparently someone does.>_< self="never">_<) Anway....Naomi was like EAT FASTER..zzzz.want me to choke huh? =P Hmm..kk nothing much happened then... Oh ya..i bumped into Rabia..^^ wah was so happy to see her..hehe...he was her friend..Er Yen.Before this I called him “you”.Didn’t know what was his name before..XD Zzzzz...waited fo ages for SOMEONE ish.-.-” Anyway....when SOMEONE finally arrived...aaaa..someone was sitting at the backseat..LOL..not that I mind or anything...well...NOT YET^ ^

Ice Skating!

Ok...what I fear the most was I’v forgotten how to actually ice skate..I mean..it’s been ages since I’ve skated..or roller bladed.>_<

Take a deep breath..YOU CAN DO IT!..

I realised one of the hardest thing to do when ice skating is to get into the ice skating rink...i mean the transition between no so slippery ground to ...very very slippery and frictionless ground >_<
Later on....

Jean decided to sit in front Naomi was making faces..=P and so was Mel..-_-” which in return I made faces too..=P face making is highly contagious.=P What was I supposed to be worried?
I wasn’t..because I knew there wasn’t anyting bad behind it. Maybe because I trust him? I didn’t have anything to worry about.....but he should have shoo-ed her away..LOL..^ ^” mel was saying..you should kill him after this..^^“ Hmm..which makes me wonder gosh what if i wasn’t there?-_-“ ok they’re making ME PARANOID..I was so not..was actually happy to sit at the back..=P SO they we’re saying..you two should let people know..Youll get hurt later in the future..(harr>_<) ok ok ok ..fine fine fine.. Oh and not to forget that he wont listen to me when I asked him to wear his seat belts..ouch..what the..FINE..and plz ler..drive properly..-_-” GOod that you realised I was wearing my seatbelts..=P I was sitting at the back mind you..^^ Want me to die earlier huh?-_-” WELL fyi I don’t wanna die yet=P zzz..next time..i’ll take a CAB =P

Anywaaayyy.....Ah..was making a fake laugh at the back of the car in response to someone’s laugh..HAHHAHA..-_-” sot...maybe to annoyed=P ish.... And yes...after leaving My Place Apartment..sent Naomi an sms.^^ gosh...Details are private and confidential.=P That was it..^^ Got home and went to bed..GOSH SO TIRED.>_<>

Oh and one more thing..the list is actually embedded inside my entries.^^”

Happy Holidays people..~ =)

<-::Ano+out::->

2006-09-02T09:52:00.000+08:00
Whee here I am again.^ ^

Ah..found out that my “coach” is in Subang! What the......and yet I didn’t know.How come D.G didn’t tell me.XD.Evil lady.Maybe we can lay tennis sometime=D.Me and my “power shots” ^^ Yesh yesh I actually managed to hit the ball beyond St Thom’s tennis court.Muahahha..Muahahha...hmm..i think tennis is on of the most tiring sport that I’ve tried.The sun....the running around like crazy whilst carrying the heavy racket.TORTURE.but I had fun. The last time I played was...er..hm..Can’t remember..somewhere last year. ^^”

Was browsing some blogs early.....again that thought and same feeling struck me again...I don’t think I can get over this. As they say Leos are not in a forgiving mood this year. ^ ^ SO TRUE.Alright then let me go back to the “thought”. I can’t really EXPLAIN it...maybe I can..but I wish not to.It’s just too painful. Facing it once was hard enough.More than I could ever handle.

OUCH...i can feel something inside me...CHURNING sloowwllllyyyyy....-__-” Wonder if my advisors will laugh and said “ I told you so” =P. Ouch again. I don’t think I can go through this at the same time having these “thoughts”. I have a feeling that they are true.=P. Wonder why I even gave it a try. =S. I undertoood the truth.Knew it..YET.......how disappointing..So what’s going to happen now?

Just wait...and see...

But doubt that I will be 100% liberated.I sense trouble.=P

Anyway....

Managed to get my watch’s band changed =D.Yay finally. They didn’t have any other colours.Bands only came in Dark brown,Light brown -.- Leather bands.Zzz..Leather bands are just too hard to take care off.=P Then they had the metal sort of bands. So..i chose the metal ones.More durable ^ ^.lol..and the reason why it only came in limited colours is because well....the watch that I got from them before was a guy’s watch.LOL..that explains why they aren’t any pinks around ^^”.At least now I wont have to worry soaking my watch in water anymore XD.
I think that’s all for now......

God Bless whoever’s reading this =)
And Goodnite =D
And take care..
And like someone always says as a goodbye
“Drink lots of water” ^^”

( =*<<Ano out>>*=)

2006-09-01T12:43:00.000+08:00

YAY...exam week one’s OVER.=D. Buuttt..I wish not utter a word about it.Firstly because it’s er...U know..^^”.
Hmm..since I wont say anything on exam....wonder is there anything left to write.=P.*ponder*
.
.
.
I got an sms from annie around 8 am.
Annie : eh you know what day is it?
Hmm...it’s the 31..Merde...*pause*..then something in my head suddenly snapped. *gasp*..It’s Jeralynn’s birthday!omg...how could i forget.=S
Happy birthday Jeralynn!

Haih... Maybe I was too stressed out........Gomenasai..^^”
Then...Annie and I began to talk about our gang.Hm..Annie’s a bit worried that one member’s drifting away........haih..whatever.....If she prefers other people then let her be.^^ We still have each other right?=).
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.
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Life’s been crazy lately...so much is happening in such a short period of time....But thank goodness I had a lot of advisors beside me ^^ that helped a lot. One contradicted what I thought though....But that was the whole point of having to have advisors...to see what are the other options available...see what I couldn’t see before. ^^ Thax...They were the ones who made me change my mind I guess...I hope everything will turn our just fine....JENG jeng JENG!
But I still think that my decision was the most difficult one....Don’t worry I’m prepared to face them.=). Hmm..wonder should I write what were my advisors’ evaluations^^ yes...the next entry then..
AH..here’s the funny bit...my advisors don’t actually know what my decision was.^ ^.Muahahha..I didn’t know I could keep secrets this well=D.Amazing eh?....^ ^.Of course I intend to tell them SOON..slowly..don’t want to give them a heart attack or anything =P.Not everyone likes suprises ^^.

<bb out>*~

2006-08-26T18:51:00.000+08:00
First day of resolution didn’t go as smooth as I thought it would be. =P Was about to go sot. Yesh more sot usual. ^^ . All day long I was in the state of melancholy. Reason? Not that clear. It’s not that it was a lot different from the day before.=P SOT.

Anyway..got an SMS from Mel this morning...said that she couldn’t stand Jessie anymore. Hmm....guess you can never bury unresolved past huh. Wonder what’s gona happen? I hope she’ll think carefully before she says or does something she’ll regret. ^^ Nah..doubt she would do that.

Funny...I am more prepared to restart my resolution again? Gosh..I am going crazy am i?=P

Afternoon’s almost over..Mel hasn’t told me what Jessie has done yet.aiks....

I’ll wait....

Let’s go through my list of bruises...

*Bruises till this day ( in Aug) : 6
*this count only includes bruises ranging from 1 cm and bigger in diameter. =P

Bruises due to pinches : 4
Bruises due to minor accidents : 1
Mystery bruises : 1
Tiny bruises which were omitted in the original bruise count : 5-10

So do you think there’s something wrong with me?
Every else thinks so....-_-”...
I was jokingly telling Duo Tong that I have some platelet count disorder. (Bruising and spontaneous bruising were one of the symptoms ) . Apparently she told her sister.Who told Yoke Teng.-.-” what..now PM4 thinks I have some blood disorder..-.-” Ah well..good thing in the sense that i wont be getting and pinches from anyone anymore..=D

Anyway...lets go back to the platelet count disorder thing again.I doubt that I have it..I mean..what are the chances of that happening? ^^.CHooOIIi..*touch wood*. But my grandma has blood disorder. Er.that kinda raises the chances of anyone in the later generation having it. She found out earlier last year that she has beta- thalessimia. Since she’s under the beta category the effect aren’t that prominent. She does suffer from minor anemia now and then and dizziness.Hmm...if i were to have some heredity disease I wouldn’t be here right now right? ^ ^”. Im 18 and kicking.=P

REMINDER

2006-08-25T22:40:00.000+08:00
Physics practical......................

FIRST SHIFT

time : 8.10 pm....

Venue: Phsyics LAB 3......

Meow

2006-08-25T22:29:00.000+08:00
Whoa I let out two kimizus today. =D that’s a record! From NIL to TWO. ^^

Someone said earlier today that I don’t share my kimizus with her enough.It’s not the question of not wanting to share any kimizu it’s just that I don’t have any to share it with her.=S honestly..well I do..just that like she said as well..Some things are better left buried becaue you don’t want to siasoikan yourself.Or maybe you just don’t want to be judge based on that thing you’ve done or said.hmm....

So in response to that....I told her one of my kimizus. Well it has something to do with the second kimizu.

Second kimizu.
Someone reopened the “X-file”.Good timing because I needed to get that out of my system for ages already =P.I wished I hadn’t went that way. But..don’t quite know why it went that way..=S wished I hadn’t said anything.>_< past="P.">

Friends
Ah if your friends don’t approve you of doing something...doing that something is almost impossible. It’s either them or you. I’m no ornament carrier.^ ^.

Time frame
Since eventually everyone has to say goodbye in less than a year’s time.....why bother being close to anyone?It’ll be so much difficult for me to say goodbye when you’ve become so attached to that person....I’m not prepared for that.

Unresolved past.
Er....how do I put this...sharing is not as caring as some people think.=P *STOPWATCH*

^_^...so...

It’s ain’t easy for anyone to turn back at someone you care for. Actually I don’t call this turning my back..well...not in the short run. I think it’s best for everyone =) Even though I said I wanna forget it...I didn’t say that I wanna stop caring. ^ ^ you’re still an ornament. Muahahaha..muahahha.XD

<+A*n0 ou7!+>

Greetings from the web

2006-07-28T13:03:00.000+08:00
Ding ding..It's the almost the end of the week!=D wah time's flying so fast!

Zzzz....but strangely I'm not in the mood to shop anymore.Probably because..zzzz..my bio quiz's result was horrible HA HA HA..was like so depressed during bio until I didn't talk that much.=P Haih...just wondered how I managed to get that low..and how I didn't manage to get something remotely "OK".BLARGH...yea I know my memory is just useless..might as well don't give me a brain...rite?Almost as useless as my appendics..=P

anyway..enough about that...Aint sad anymore..:P Hmm....I think sadness has stolen my sanity..heeeheeeheeeheeehee...=_+

ah..whatever..I forgive myself..it's time to move onnnn.....and concentrate on the coming exams..AAAA...3 more weeks..

hmm..but but but..in less than 4 weeks something else is coming...^_^ go figureee...Wonder what would that day be like?la la la la....

Suppress=Express?

2006-07-25T22:13:00.000+08:00
Yesh yesh..I’m back here again....
Ok I read somewhere today that , If you suppress you’re emotion it will be like a bouncing ball. It’s second comeback will be harder and stronger. I think that’s what’s happening to me now. The comeback is here and it’s hitting me twice as hard as before. Hmm..if suppressing is wrong then how do you get over something? Forgetting is the same as suppressing . If you don’t suppress then you wont forget....Suppressing is a short cut to forgetting. There’s another path that’s a lot longer...more pain..but in the long run it’s a lot better..In the journey you’ll be a more developed person. So am I really to take the challenge? To take the long winding road ? That’s my new resolution. =)
I hope nothing will come between me and my resolution..
Hm....
Rules are meant to bent
Promises are meant to be broken..
Resolutions are to be ? Forgotten? XD

ah..one more thing...I shall keep one thing though..muahahah..muahhaha..a little bit of my side..lol.we need a bit of evill to keep everything in equilibrium rite?:D

2006-07-21T22:03:00.000+08:00
Haih.... so exhausted..zzz...School bag’s just over weight!.-_-” gosh..went to McD twice today!..aaa..im turning into a fast food junkie!
PLUS mental torture from something!=P nyek..why can’t they let me be! HAPPY!!..NOT KNOWING what’s going behind my back.lol.because you see.I DON’T WANT TO KNOW.But yea..it’s for my best...haih...you see the problem here is that I can’t handle it.hmm...haih..I know that I should face it and swallow it whole.That’s what err.warrior students do=P But Im no warrior..;( Hmm..but then..I rather be stressed out and informative rather than happy and blur.=P la la la la la..
YO..HALTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!
What am I saying??!! Seeeeee..IM BOTHERED AGAIN!..WTH....maybe i need to do something else..rrr..go and study Chemistry or something.=P *sot*
AH..maybe the insanity in class is affecting me.Gosh.didn’t know insanity is contagious!..ALERT ALERT!
Insanity in class:
Ah..err.it seems that the couples in class has er..separated. =P ALL of them.What the..=S I guess July isn’t really a great month for those love birds.=P lol..Haih.someone actually said that Vic was being evil. Hmm..perhaps! Can’t do much judgement because don’t exactly know what happened.=P But.if it did involve violence..no matter how tiny it was..err..I have to disagree with Vic being too sensitive.=P I mean..haih..imagine your BF has a thing for kicking stuff and punching cars.Er..that’s like a BIG HINT telling you he’s not someone you would want to be with.=P er..ok that was harsh..=S aiks..sorry sorry..DON’T HURT ME! =P
Lol..Duo Tong and I stayed back today..
Er..guess what we did? Read someone’s blog.XD..yesh yesh..read momo’s. Haha.we’re like terribly paranoid..imagine if he was at the web while we were busy criticizing his bloggie! Aaaaaaaaaa....die ler DIE!.XD
*yawn*
So sleeppyyy..............
Don’t wanna sleep.wanna watch TV ..XD

Call me...The Horse Breeder..=P

2006-07-21T21:30:00.000+08:00
Ah..did this Career Test the other day at college..=P Asked loads of questions on your interests and all.=P Ah..guess what I got?=D
The first few 10 suggestions was..err..so boring.=P

From...Microbiologist...zoologist...bla bla..all those gists, gists ...

But.one was totally unexpected...

A HORSES BREEDER!

What the ......I don’t recall being some animal lover or anything like that..=P How come I didn’t get Vet instead..zzz..maybe it’s because I put a tick for “ I like working outdoors part”.Hmm.why didn’t it just suggest “ COWBOY” instead..or.in this case..a cowgirl. Talking about cows..why not Cow breeder instead of horses? Or sheep probably.ah the hot weather in Malaysia will make my sheep breeding life a failure. Hmm..Ah it’s that I didn’t even get anything that has to do with charity or helping people.(er..only horses) like Nursing or Teacher perhaps?lol.am I that evil? Ah but i got Psychiatrist though..

Hmm.then after we did that test...We’re told to fill up a form..

Here were some of the questions:
What’s your major interest?
My goodness..I don’t know.HAHAHA.=P guess what I put? Lol..its private and confidential.^_^
Haih.that’s a pretty hard question.I mean if it were MINOR interest then it would be easier.BUT MAJOR INTEREST? Err..surviving? Staying alive?it said MAJOR what.:P

Ah...there;s this guy in my class who actually got Beautician as one of his suggestions.WHAT THE.wonder what he answered? He flipped a coin or something?:P aiks..weird

SO what will the future hold for me?Horseys and boots? or miscroscopic thingies?..

Hmmm.........

what's up??!

2006-07-21T19:15:00.000+08:00
AHA!!!..I know now why I’m annoyed!..It all began after break.=P Then..carried on during Maths.-_-” hmm..only understood myself NOW..ehe...if it takes this LONG for me to understand myself wonder how long does it take other people to understand me? Probably NEVER? =P
You see..someone thinks im “waiting” for someone..-_-’ omg..if that what people think..then i better stop whatever that makes them think that way......because I AM NOT.Gezz..please ler..haih..That’s why I’m very very annoyed..-_-” ..Do you think I’m that mean to myself? HAH!...no way.have to kill the other person 1st before I would do that to myself..^_^.
But then....if i say im liberated..why should I be bothered?..aha..that’s the missing piece of this never ending puzzle..=P hmm..i mean for the past few days..I’ve been trying to avoid something..now it seems that im doing that exact opposite?well not opposite but DRAWN again..but some force..well.not actually drawn.but...im bothered by it! Im not supposed to.since I KNOW im not attached anymore..=P. Maybe it’s the fact that I knew I had failed something..haha!..I can’t stand losing.
And yesh.another puzzle appears from nowhere..It has branched!..someone’s isn’t normally as friendly ask before..lol.ignoring me now.what the..-_-” what is happening??

2006-07-21T18:49:00.000+08:00
Whee...got this from someone else's blog..^_^ ..yesh yesh yesh..im guilty of plagiarism..^_^ la la la la..
Im born in August..^_^..Supposedly that's my list of characteristics..

AUGUST
Loves to joke
Attractive
Suave and caring
Brave and fearless
Firm and has leadership qualities
Knows how to console others
Too generous
Egoistic
Takes high pride of oneself
Thirsty for praises
Extraordinary spirit
Easily angered
Angry when provoked
Easily jealous
Observant Careful and cautious
Thinks quickly
Independent thoughts
Loves to lead
Loves to dream
Talented in the arts, music and defence
Sensitive but not petty
Poor resistance against illnesses ( what the..)
Learns to relax
Hasty and rushy
Romantic
Loving and caring
Loves to make friends

Does your name begin with: A
U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic.

Leo
Turn ons
If you have Leo partner respect him and his majestic manners. Accept the advice of Leo, the lion, as he is the king of the jungle. It is the sign of a showman so if your partner does everything in grand style enjoy it. Do lavish Leo`s frequently with compliments and see them purr like a cat. They fall easily for flattery and want to be center of attraction of all eyes (sometimes they can be quiet theatrical too).
Turn offs
Never ever hurt the ego of a Leo. Pride, ego and vanity are some of the bags all Leo`s always carry with them. Do not touch these bags. An authoritative Leo is even more difficult to handle in such circumstances. Leo is a sunny sign so they do not like people who are gloomy or depressed. Even if you are crying at heart keep a sunny smile on your lips and then let lion take the charge and remove all worries from your life.

hmm..so..how true do you think it is?mirror image of me?or..just......plain vubbissh..

2006-07-09T22:14:00.000+08:00
Tomorrow morning at 3 am....just few hours to go..

France Vs. Italy

Marks the ending of this year's world cup.
*standing ovation* *fireworks*.......and the beginning of proper sleeping habit...^^

ehe..and one more thing...GO GERMANY! =P

GREAT ..

2006-07-07T23:45:00.000+08:00
Ish...While trying to dig something at the same time I ended up digging my own grave.*CURSES*..so messed up.You see Michelle and I were trying to dig some kimizu out of Sebastian.Didn’t think anything was wrong with it at first.But then after doing some thinking.I figured out there were a lot loopholes. Hence I was reluctant to do so. I kept telling Michelle not ask him!-_-” Coz he’ll feel weird around her.And I don’t want to do THAT!....You see if he knows that likes him he‘ll probably feel awkward around him and start ignoring her!=S So she asked him anyway without me.BUT BUT BUT!!! our so called brilliant idea went haywire.-.- yea yea i know, who told us to be SO KEPO.gez we had good intentions mind you!THEN now he thinks that THAT SOMEONE who likes him is probably me!owh DEAR.-.-added some details that kinda crushed me.lol..haih.LISTED reasons why he wouldn’t like me.GEZ plz ler.ish ish ish.-_-”.OUCH.I didn’t have the heart to tell you that NO I DON’T LIKE HIM.=P Yet he listed down THAT.lol!!shesh,omg.-.-” lol.HILARIOUS.=P Don’t know what to say anymore.=P haih...tried mending it.hopefully it worked.=P If not.errr....all I can say now is..whatever ler..=P

Shout out

2006-07-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to:
The official banana boat shaker
..Chin Hui Chiat (5th of July ^^)..
Owh and...Kaya ( 4rd of July =D)
Happy 18th Birthday to both of you.

Woops.My bad

2006-07-04T20:27:00.000+08:00
SO for nearly a week I really though that my ex-classmate had joined Akademi fantasia.lol.found out yesterday that I turned out to be a HUGE COINCIDENCE. XD.

The AF dude: Amirul,18, from BDC
The dude I knew: Amirul,18 from BDC,loves to sing.but I forgotten his last name =P

LOL..LOOKK!!! :
Same age,same first name,lives in the same area.
Wah....what are the chances of a series of similarities to happen?? Hmmmm.........
Very low rigghhttt? =P

This was when I figured out that when some things are just to good to be true are welll...too good to be true..^^ (another TII moment )

Ano : Hey hey hey
Nadz: Yea yea?
Ano : Wei..Amirul joined AF is it?
Nadz: Yea.He doesn’t know how to sing.
Ano : -_-” He’s OKAY ler.(Aheh..Have to defend old buddies rite??!).He’s the one from Satria right?!!OMG..He’s lost a lot of weight.
Nadz:*blur*huh?!NO LA!!!!!That’s Amirul Hafiz!!!
Ano: eh wait!how bout the other guy’s name??!!!
Nadz: THAT’S AMIRUL AZWAN!!!!
Ano: OOWHH!!!!!.OWHH!!!..CHEH!!! *piak* TTT
Nadz:-_-” Yea A.Azwan’s from BDC oso..But different school
Ano: oooooOOOooOOOooOO!!!!! >_< So that’s how I knew....haih..too bad..=P

Moral of the story?: There is more than one AMIRUL in this world.OWH make that in BDC. ^^

Lol..yes Aricka I know..-->>. FOWE

2006-07-01T09:34:00.000+08:00
Yo..was so sleepy this morning:P
MUST OPEN EYES...MUST NOT SLEEP..MUST NOT LOOK SLEEPY..MUST...ZZzzZZ*snooze*zZzZ

Hmm.before that could happen....got myself a soft drink..sweeeett ^^ *SUGAR HIGH* hmm.reminds me of the happy tree friends.^^

Result of sleeping around 1.30 in the morning doing Physics.=.=.Nah.Didn’t finish it.=P Yea yea....my brain’s capacity is inversely proportional to the hour.Whee.Moreover I did it in front of the TV.=P Was watching Simple Life.=P Smart ho.SO SMART.
LOL.

I actually wanted to take a nap in the library.lol.But nah...fear that I might over sleep or something.=P Imagine if I activated the alarm in my phone.hmm....not such a smart choice.I would be guilty of two offences.-_-”.1:BisinG LER!! 2:Using my hp. Nearly got barred from the library already.lol.Stupid overdue books!=P Had to pay like RM 33.50 cents the other day.*sob* Pokai!!

Aaaa battery running out.-.- hmmm.its gonna die off any minute NOW.

“There are only two ways to live your life.One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as if everything is.”
-Albert Einstein-

Ah...I guess it’s about time to raise the white flag.
I know I should do it..it’s the best thing to do now...but I just cant...=P *sot* i don’t want to let it go..not that I have anything to hold on to....
Yes...TII
However like I said before...
“Dekitara ii na, tottemo daisuki”*
..........
*wanna know the meaning?get the English translation of Doraemon’s main theme song.....XD

Doreamon crazy already..-_-” someone’s fault. We actually went searching for Doraemon cars in the net.Hmm.what do you know!Doraemon has his own solar car!=P ok ok ok..I better stop..this is getting carried away..
News on Bola Cawan:
Whoa whoa whoa whoa....
Germany....went through..(shall not use the word win.NOT YET..coz they hadn’t won anything yet XD) England hasn’t won YET.gosh..how weird England fans are everywhere..aaaaaaaaaaaa!!!But yea..i do admit that Beck’ Penalty Kick the other day was impeccable..^^ WAH..Dear England fans say thank you for that praise!la la la la.........
Anyway..I think Argentinas played better.Well ball possesion was theirs.*applause* but then..for some reason er...WHO CARES!it was a fair match...lol.Who told him to kick so low XD...very disappointing ....
Owh great..-_- I have to go to college later..hmm..
-Ano out-